Flavours Of Heaven

A Different Heart

2011-08-26T10:23:00.000-07:00

Everything when it comes to posting a new blog entry, I'm always stuck with a dilemma. The problem of a title for the entry. Perhaps this problem struck authors, preachers, songwriters and many whose content is rich but could not come up with a title or name that is on par or good enough to justify the content. It's like a dish which taste is layerful, rich and tasteful yet the plating comes to an ultimate fail. The reason for my title is because of what have been happening recently and the many things that caused a change in me.

They say sometimes, troubles are blessings in disguise and that recently a misunderstanding I caused created a opportunity for me to gain great insight. It showed me so much that I wasn't able to see and that it made me realised that what I thought I saw was not all. Words of foolishness speaks to the ears, words of the wise, the heart. Thanks ShiXiong for remembering, watching and understanding. Thanks for being there watching quietly but caring so greatly!

In the past few weeks, really glad that bonds between people grew stronger. Between the guys, RJ, Joo Keng, Vincent and Jun Wei, although seemlessly all seem to be busy with our lives, we grew in interest and concern over each others lives. Beyond all the talks that we have, our disappointments, discontentments or even maybe our resentments, deep down inside it only goes to show how much more comfortable we have grown with each other and that we're allowing each other to know the depths of our hearts. Kudos to years of bromance! And of course with Jeremy Chin, who would have known that we could work so well with each other??? ^^v Your thickskiness and of great admirable! And of course Andy, Elisha, Poon, Anissa and Susan! Hahaha! I pretty glad that through these years although so much have changed but our relationships just gets better. Even the little smses within the week just reminds me of how in times of our busyness, there's still this little space of each other!

Mehhhhh! Of course my sheeps! Wei Da and Keith! Can't express how proud I am of you two! I really am!!! Wei Da, don't ever look down on yourself, there's so much more you can do, if only you could start believing! And Keith, yes, your good on the keys!!! Although we're on this "love-hate" relationship but I believe we can grow so much stronger together!

Lastly, a lesson I learnt today... That even as I'm hanging out with people, outwardly they may seem alright but they're tweeting different things on Twitter on the same moment. And sometimes I just wish I had the answers to their questions.... But the most I could do is pat them on the head, give them a nudge, a pat on the shoulder and a smile. And even as Pst Yang spoke about burden 2 weeks back, I feel that this issue of putting up a facade and yet hurting inside is really tugging on my heart. My the Lord reveal the things of the kingdom upon my heart and grant me understanding...

So much so said, the only thoughts that could go through my mind now is that "how can I make people feel so secured in their place knowing that they are loved?"

Let Thy henchman be thee answer

Threading...

2011-08-20T08:34:00.000-07:00

It seems the more I try to be careful walking on the thin glass,
It just keeps cracking and cracking...
I don't want it to break but I can't just stand there and stare...
How I wish there's a guidebook or something,
But now, I'm even afraid to walk...
I laugh at my pittance...

Regret...

2011-08-06T11:00:00.000-07:00

I've never wanted to hurt those I love but I always end up hurting them...

Cry.

2011-08-05T02:05:00.000-07:00

As the warm afternoon breeze settles in,
A soft melancholic mood swings in...
As I playing a little country tune,
My heart flutters at my incapabilities...
Lament not over what I have lost,
But weeping over what I could not do...
Just as a swordsman wish to overcome wars,
I soar with dreams as high as the skies...
But what's with this disheartened heart,
A heart as dull as a mallet?
Oh my soul,
why art thou so downcast?
Have I not accomplished great things in my youth?
Or have I not seen the wonders of what the Almighty can do?
Perhaps all I needed was a time under the apple tree,
But may I not be like Lincoln,
Chopped the tree,
Having to face the music...
Listen to my silent prayer,
My spirit be my guide,
What my right does, my left does not,
It could not neither could it try.
But if You allow,
Make my left as strong as my right used to,
Let it glory in what it could do,
What it's best in, use it, choose it, teach it...
That if one day my right regains its former glory,
The left rejoice together.
Let them not covet, envy or strife against themselves,
But I pray,
Let them love, endure and cover one another...
Most of all that they might protect whatever that's closest to me,
The bonds that no blacksmiths can forge...
May they not be broken through words,
Though swords slice not through them...
Know my heart, guide my ways,
Do not forsake me I pray...
When you can't trust my hands,
Please,
Trust my heart...

w~

Here, again.

2010-05-05T07:38:00.000-07:00

Konbawa my dear blog! Hear am I again, not as long as I expect I'll stay away from you. As much as I want to post something happy, there's probably nothing much to, other than the fact that I just ate 2packs of Jajjiangmyun that made me feel alittle more satisfied. I don't know what to say so prolly just some random stuff...

Really motivated to play my guitar better, no special reason but ya, really want to play it better. *Strum strum dilly dilly dum dum* :) Not to mention looking really forward to getting a new guitar ( I know it hasn't been long since I got my 12strings ) but yea, wonder what my next guitar would be...

My bro just came back in 2weeks and this is really totally random! But I'm not exactly happy to see him back but rather Dad & I would prefer him not back and I'm not going into the details why...

Really want to get a big and clean kitchen fully equipped all to myself! This way I can cook all I want and bake all I want and do things that I love doing in all the time that I want!!! Weee!

Great news, got into Gen Musical Dance, Bad news, read something somewhere that made me question is all I'm doing worth it... Counter balance, now feelingless, no good....

Ok and my bro just left for my mum's hse... Dunno what's he's thinking but...

Sam is in NS now so supper with? Myself, that is till I find another person that is...

Dunno what else to type so shall stop at here and onward to my guitar...

Revive Blog, Revive!

2010-04-18T10:04:00.000-07:00

Indeed, I agree that I left my blog to die... But blogging isn't really my kinda of thing so keeping it alive was much more of a hassle than anything else. Yup there's so much that I wanna tell the world out there, the good, the bad, and the in the middle but all these seems too much to be place in words.

Just finish watching a SNSD video and had some spare time in hand so thought why not blog since I have some time in hand (actually suppose to be asleep cuz tmr there's work at 8am at Sengkang.......). It's now April and really, time pass quite in a wiffy and I don't know how long more is the combined cells gonna last but I'm really treasuring every moment of it.. The noise, the fun, the irritation and every part of it! As they say, you don't know how long it'll last but enjoy it while it does. It kinda put me in a sad mood while on this subject cuz once we go back to our own cells, will we be still as close? Undoubtly my answer concludes to a no. Maybe it's because of statistics? Like in camps and in prev cells and everything where we used to be so close to one another but now seems like a river apart. Remembered there's a Facebook group that actually reads "We used to be the closest of friends but now we hardly talk" or something like that. But like the video I watched says "If we give it our best every moment we have now, later, even if it's not like now, we won't regret it" - SooYoung (as expected ^^)

Today Thiam You made a funny remark while on our way back home. On the bus Shervelle was doing her usual stuff and Thiam You told me "Wa, I really angry! She really make me angry. Tell her and she don't listen. Wa!" Hahahaha! So far the only person I remembered making Thiam You angry was me! Now there's an addition. But as I think back on all the times I've spent with Thiam You since Sec3, I think we really grew, closer and spiritually. You know we may not be the best of friends but it always seem that there's this mutual understanding between us. He laughs at my joke, I laugh at his and we talk about stupid things together. I'm really glad that Sunday after Sunday, I can turn to my left and have him there to joke around and chat with during the sermon! Thank You!

So many more things is coming up and I thing it's time to grind the belt and prepare for a heaven of a time! (Hell of a time sounds stupid to me......) There's Zone Camp!!! Yay, of course Sarah's birthday is together and she's so excited about it. Then there's church camp!!! Ignite after that! The momentum is really building and I'm really getting excited! (There's SNSD concert in July too but it's in Thailand and would really need a miracle to go cuz I'm not gonna go if I'm not going alone. Still praying for that bank acc miracle! Jun Wei, pray with me!!! Hahahahahha!)

Yup that's all for now and tune in the next time, altho I don't know when but in the meantime, stay strong, stay cheerful and stay passionate!!!

The love of God, is greater far, than tongue or pen, could ever tell....

For Granted...

2010-01-22T10:32:00.000-08:00

Today was on the bus towards 201 for camp group gathering where a event in the bus spark off my chains of thoughts and eventually to blog it down. I got up the bus and I stood there observing the crowd in the bus as usual. Then a Indian family and an old lady got up the bus. As usual, 2 people gave up their seats. But this gesture of kindness is what that totally push me off my dimension. Firstly, the lady that gave up her seat for the old lady, she didn't gave up it happily or willingly but rather, she just stood up and pointed at her seat and her face was showing something like,"I know I have to give this seat up for you but I'm just not that willing". And the chinese old lady was equally bad, she stared at the lady rudely and then just sat down as tho she deserved it.... For the indian family, a lady gave up her sit so that the Indian lady could sit down with the toddler in her arms. But just when the lady offer her seat, the Indian lady without hesitation just sat down as tho someone else was gonna snatch it from her. And when she sat down, she just pretend as tho she got the sit herself and didn't even bothering thanking the lady who gave up her seat.

I don't understand why nowadays in society and a first world country like Singapore, the more our economy and "class" progress, the more degrading is our manners. Like if we step into a posh or high class restaurant, we expect the waiter to greet us with politeness and all but all we do is stick our head high and don't even respond... You may say I'm generalising Singaporean but that is indeed what the general is doing. Go anywhere in the public, there's always a lack of generosity, respect, kindness, manners. Even in our education system, it focuses so much on subjects, modules, topics and grades but fail to fork out time to inculcate manners, character and behavior in Singaporeans. Even CME periods nowadays is deem unless and for students to take a break to do their stuff.

Maybe it's what the world is building it's foundation upon. In the past, in even kingdom, dynasty or era, all their foundation was built on loyalty, respect, love, graciousness , wisdom and discipline. That's why no matter how many times these kingdoms or era fall, the next is still built on the same foundation cause that's what keeps the people at peace. The only reason for war was being not contended in being in one's one position in society or greed. But now, even as there is no longer kingdoms or war but the world is degrading as a whole. The reason for the absence of war is simply the interior war itself in the country is enough to handle then to go start a war with another country. With such competitiveness within each individual in a society, everyone is fighting against another to achieve the title of the "Cream of the Crop". And the foundation the world is built on now? Simply, money, entertainment and self fulfillment. The difference from the past? From selflessness to self-centeredness. Everyone wants their fair share from the pie now, even to the crumbs.

But even within all these stuff, I choose to believe that we, even as Christians, can make the change. Not because we can but because there's grace. There's enough love for us to encompass people for their faults, enough grace to accept people for who they are and enough of God to change people. If everyone do their part, there's no need for revival cause the world would already be saved.

I'm looking forward to cell!

In This New Year!

2010-01-16T09:03:00.001-08:00

Yes yes yes, I've not blog like since forever! And I'm like suppose to sleep like now cuz I really wanna wake up early tmr... But so much have happened and if I could pen it all down in just one word it'll be "Worthy". 14/jan marks the start of my 5th year as a Christian! Last year alot happened but this year, I'm expecting for greater things to happen! Last year's resolution was to be involve in more ppl's life and this year, it's to impact lives! No matter how much I look at it, Christianity is all about lives changing. I can go on and write a long thesis on what and how Christianity changes lives but I'll just leave that till the day I get my PhD(not!).

Let's see what I can remember!

-Hamy's gone, for good! Oh where art thou? Canada Toronto......
-Shangbo's gone too... (Pls not to USA!)
-I got even skinnier and Christine told me not to get any skinnier.......
-Met the Philippines Pastors and our mission trip team today and ate like ALOT! (A-Tai, we miss you!)
-Caught up with Pastor Marlou, but he's leaving tmr....
-Cells' gonna go back to the 3 cells, mixed feelings....
-Lamed Thiam You today! (Oh, Joel, ..., :))
-Shervelle keeps tagging along me and Prico...
-The point above includes irritating me...
-Joalina's missing for today...
-Yesterday Wei Yi look like High Class Waitress then Purdee like her manager liddat...
-Today Wei Yi look more formal but Purdee still look so professional....
-Ivan can lead worship, preach, evangelise, jump, run, do pull ups but can't tie a tie....
-Women take forever to do everything except for: spending money, flaring up, being unreasonable, being late, forgetting stuff, and so on and so forth....(Liz, Wei Yi, Wendy, don't kill me if you even see this but it's true. Be set free!!![I'm so dead....])
-Had dinner with Hamy's cell before she flew...
-Trudy, rotating toilet bowl(laughs), Constance, boil the sea(laughs), Louis, we are RACISTS!
-Kelly Chew, Alethea, Cheryl, KH, Axel, Me," Pudding, Pudding, Pudding!" *YUCK!*
-Joel (Oh) pls dun call so so early, I'll have trouble staying awake....
- I realised I forgot to call RJ...
-Have to do push ups later before going to sleep....
-I'll have to end here, long day ahead tomorrow!
-Happy Birthday KBL!!!

As For Today...

2009-11-28T11:15:00.001-08:00

Today we had, Zone Service!!! Haha! Ice Breaker was really fun and funny! Esp when Wayne's the in charge, there's totally no room for boredom!!! Sad to say that it'll be the last zone service for the year but Wendy's message was great! Celebrated her birthday and went to eat at Macs. I have to apologise for calling Sarah Aunty Sarah once but she called me uncle and whack me upteem time so I think we can call it quits then! Chatted and played with Hui Ling and Hui Ling over dinner with Joel Oh Kian Tong showing off his Best In Maths Cert!!! Hahaha! Again and again and again and again...(does dance moves) Then went to lepak with sam and wayne. Talked with jeremy for awhile too. After that, it was off to Ruben's BBQ!!!

Met Purdee on bus 15! Hahah! Was super random and we kept asking her random questions. Then we isolate Wayne and he fell asleep -.-" after Purdee alighted me and sam talked for awhile more.

At Rube's BBQ:
We thought it'll be very crowded and that there'll be alot of MLs but it was the opp. Ok, learned a new term fro€m Benia. It's called "Orh Tor". What is it? Hahaha! Go figure out! Met a few old frens, ppl like ruben and eugene and benia, got to know a few new other guys. Had quite a fun time talking and chatting and talking crap and the fun part is always about bullying the birthday boy! I think the punch I landed on his chest must really hurt! Hahahah! Sorry WeiYi that we have to ask you to go home when you'll all the way at the place already but, we have your interest in heart<3

Tmr:
Gemmy's!
Wagyu Beef!
Dress Up!
Resignation Letter Sent!

Me: Joel slimmed down a lot from last time.
Benia: Then God must really exists!!!

Not Nice Being Mr Nice

2009-11-22T09:52:00.000-08:00

Who would have thought that my 1 year of dreaming and 2months or training would come to naught today when all I do was being nice.

1) I was not supposed to be team captain just that no one else wanted to...
2) I didn't choose the players...

1st Wayne wants shouts at me telling me what to do, then another person who knows nothing about basketball tells the team what to do, then Wayne gets his way. I mean I'm fine with all these if we're playing with good players but we have to know our means. What's with all the, if my plan fail I don't play lor, it's just a game no need to win and all those remarks? I was talking to Jeremy Wong on thursday night and he told me something that really hit me that is Sportsmanship is playing the best you can no matter who your opponent is to show them the due respect. But if all you guys are concerned is about having fun and make sure everyone plays every game, then why come? And the fact is everyone got to play for at least 1 and a half game, all except me... I really wonder if I told nicholas tan that I take over as captain and register our team is a mistake? Some people wasn't supposed to be in the team but they came and asked me to put them in but when I put them in against the others opinions, all I got was rebellion and ignorance? And I still have to go over to the other team's captain to tell them not to play so seriously against us. All this for? So much for being nice. Is it me that I lack the charisma to lead a team or it's just plainly people don't wanna listen? I don't know but at least be grateful that I let you guys in...

I know I shouldn't be here ranting and crying over spilled milk but if you're taking people's dreams and vision lightly and forsaking all the effort people try to make you feel good then there's no point me being nice. All I wanted was us to win at least one, and it's not too much to ask for but in the end? We can't even score a single point in that game we're supposed to win... I guess it was kinda rude for me to leave the court for a breather but if I sat in there longer, I would have exploded and gave you a punch in the face. I knew that wasn't Christ-like so I walked out to cool off... At least Chow was outside chatting with me... Thanks man Chow! And after everything, no one said nothing... Well at least I got a "That was a good game" from Wen and that made me really happy altho my face and the other part of me is still trying to cool off.

After that went to Changkat to play with the guys. Haha! Elisha called me "zone 6 best player..." He's like trying to be lame... But at least the guys said I improved and that today my shooting was more accurate. It seems that all those training paid off... Soon, soon every sunday I can go down changkat and play again!

Yup, don't worry, I'm still nice :) Just that I'm totally disturbed and frustrated with the whole incident but ya, it's all over... Let's just make tomorrow a better day than today!

I'm Blessed Beyond Words...

2009-11-01T10:08:00.000-08:00

Just listened to the song "Because You Loved Me" by Celine Dion. Indeed, it's a all time rock-your-roof-off classic! It's very very nice! And during the song, I thought alot. Alot about today, alot about this year and alot about people. Let's recap!

Today, ate at Edwin's father shop after service again. Yum yum =p! I still like to do it,"Edwinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn"!
Pardon me... Yea, eating with the cell and enjoying everyone's company. If it was the start of the year, I wouldn't imagine myself sitting there having lunch/dinner with everyone else. But I guess, things change, don't they? It's strange to see how God work through things and fufil my new year resolution for me. What was it? Simply, I wanted to be more involved in the lives of many others. Because at the start of the year I realised that if I live a life that doesn't impact the lives of others, there's no pont in staying in cell or serving in ministry. That's why I decided to be more involved in the lives of others in the year to come.

And then first, God pulled the cell close together. Tho ppl come and go, but I believed that 6.1 has really learned to go through things together as a cell. Altho on the surface we seem so diff from each other but on the inside, bit by bit unknowningly, we've started to enjoy each others' company. Then came the 3 cells combination. To me, in the start, I was still adapting to the whole issue but slowly, I guess all of us got comfortable with each other. Through many different events and many weeks of cell and bonding, we've gotten pretty clse to each other. And even now, I can call it a family, a place where ppl come, they can laugh with us, join us for fun and wanna stay because everyone is so real. I'll never imagine myself saying this at the start of the year but now, cell's getting "warmmer".

And even sitting down now, I really question myself what's next? What more can I do for the cell? I suppose you can't call it duty but instead, it's like a sense of ownership, a sense of belonging that makes you wanna make things better. I don't know how long the combined cells will last but let's treasue it while we can. There's this saying, "People close to you are like air, you'll only know the importance when you lose it". And I think the day will come when each cell have to go their seperate ways and I hope, when we look back, we'll have wonderful memories to hold on to...

I want to end this entry here but I don't know how to put the perfect full stop. Because even deep inside, there's this warm and fuzzy feeling as I think about the peeps. 6.1, 6.5, 6.7, you guys rox!

For all those times you stood by me,
For all the truth that you make me see,
For all the joy you brought to my life,
For all the wrong that you made right.
For every dream you made come true,
For all the love I found in you.
I'll be forever thankful, baby.
You're the one who held me up,
Never let me fall.
You're the one who saw me through it all.

Never Had A Dream Come True, Till The Day That I've Found You!

2009-10-27T08:37:00.000-07:00

Alot have been happening recently esp in work, and when I say alot, it really means alot! Stress level is up to my neck and I've not been catching up on my hours of sleep. My only dreamtimes are times on the bus where I can barely catch a wink.

Tonight, every1's turning in early, so it's not just me but every1 is exhausted. Even granny is nt turning in late... Rare. Just gulp down like 600ml of Milo, hope it'll provide me with a lil energy boost for tmr!

Today hanged out with JW! Last wk I help him with his dream of baking, this wk his turn to wait for my dream with me. It was really anxious but exciting. The last 30mins esp! Woohoo! But, it was realized. A dream, a love, today it's mine! Hahahahaha! The wait and preparation took me a year! And after waiting so long, it only increased my happiness!!! Really really glad.

The numbers does not only make it sound nicer, but it also shows my desire to play more for, You.

Yester And Now!

2009-10-21T10:51:00.000-07:00

Yup, yesterday while working, I served Tan Keng Hua! If u dunno who she is, she's the actress who acts as Chu's wife in PCK. Being starstruck alrdy! Wonder who will appear tmr?

Today went wif JW to Courts to buy his oven and mixer. Then had Popeyes at Century Square! Newly opened. But at there, I was irritated by 3 types of ppl:

1) NS men: Lottas of nonsense, no substance. All talk and no walk. And all they do is waste other ppl's time. No wonder they always kena in camp, they asked for it!

2) Indecisive and talkative woman. There's this woman that was qeueing behind me and she keeps asking her bf what to eat and keep changing her choices for like 15min? And she keeps commenting on Popeyes' menu and food and comparing wif other fast food and how it should operate. If she was that good, she won't even be there eating it....

3) Rude and act high class Singaporean. Although S'pore's education ranks amongst top 10 in the world, the ppl here lack manners and place others before them. They always have this attitude that as long as they got that alil more penny, everyone have to serve them properly. Don't believe? Go take the MRT at peak period with 10 senior citizens ard you. See you go up first or them? How about being at the counter at any shop in Paragon, orchard or anywhere where ppl's wallet are abit more loaded? They act as tho the whole earth is owned by them.... And if you notice, any fastfood rest u step in, how many of the ppl would actually smile to the counter person or say a thank you at the end of their services. 1 outta 20?

Conclusion: Education up, humanism down, true? I dunno but at leasst that's what my dad used to say. "Some ppl study uni but the manners like Sh*t! Study until where? Uni never teach manners arh?" I kinda argee wif him now.

I think things have to change, esp from small. Can you imagine like in 20years, everyone works only in the face of money and not from a servicing heart? Frightenning. Another frightenning fact: Kids nowadays splur faster. That day at Iluma, I saw a bunch of kids like Pri5 or Pri6 eating at a rest w/o their parents and they were totally rude to the waitress. Haiz.

Too fumed up with how things are in Singapore now...Hmph!
Post again but now I shall chill...

May God have mercy on this generation...

Star-Strucked!!!

2009-10-19T10:45:00.000-07:00

Firstly, Happy Birthday! Yea, to whoever knows who and that person! Stay Happy!

Yup, today served edmund chung and his son and daughter. If you don't know who's edmund chung, he's ziang yun's husband. He's nice, in fact really nice. And he's got that smile plus charisma! Awww.... He's da man! back at Parkway but I'm already missing Iluma and it's peeps! Iluma!!! The peeps at PP still recognised me still tho, even after 3mths! The china guy from Phin's, and the lady from Pat's Oven, Irene from Coffee Bean and those women over at Skuraya Fish Mart, peeps from Esprito Santo! Really glad to see them again. Caught up with some of them while they were on their way to the toilet and chatted awhile with them. I kinda miss them. It's seem like no matter where I'm working, God always put nice ppl ard and I'm really glad for this type of blessing. It makes working easier and more pleasant. Jac overslept and end up at AMK! Mogu sleep too much le!

Daph & MQ was at berrylite studying too and Vanessa Wee was at Subway. Somehow it seems kinda good when they're away from each other paths. Caught up with Vanessa in my 1hour break and like always, I enjoyed talking and catching up with her!

Talking about Vanessa, last wk I saw Vanessa at Iluma. This time, it's Carol's niece. I'm surprised to see how much she's grown and I kinda feel old le. And she still recognised me! Hahaha! Long time, really long. Sunday worked with Vanessa, Vanessa Chiw for abt an hour? As usual, she still bullys me. Shen of Iluma, Berrylite's Secret Box and Women's Anger Venting Machine, not easy...

Wonder what wonders is God gonna show me tomorrow?

Grant me a heart,
To love the forsaken,
To remember those forgotten,
And to bring back those that were led astray.
Even if I get hurt along the way,
Let me perservere,
So that they can once again see that light,
That love you have for them...

Up-Date-To

2009-10-18T09:44:00.000-07:00

Here's update for the recent events!

1) Happy Birthday Chow!!! Glad you like the cookies!
2)Sheng Ming's last day at work. Been with him on first day, been with him on the last, memorable!
3)Transferring back to parkway... No more dou jiang you tiao but there's Carl's Jr but at the expense of 1000%!!!
4)Wasn't glad not to have chicken rice with cell for lunch today, wans't at all :(
5)Regena's funny, totally!!!
6)Customer flirted with me... (Many times it happens but this, she's the oldest so far!)
7)So gonna miss Iluma! Chow, Alina, and all the friendly and unfriendly peeps there!
8)Coffeebean's pasta may end up being my staple food... Hope the staffs are still the same, at least Kelvin!!! Pls!!!
9) Served Joanne Peh and her bf today, let's see.... It's like the 6 or 7th time I served her. Should take a pic with her soon!
10) Joanne Peh is not the only celebrity I served.
11)I dunno le...

Let's see what's there to update soon!

Oh ya, today we wrote our mission line and mine is:

To live each day knowing God anew;
To breathe every moment with passion anew;
To praise God every season with strength renew;
To believe in God every minute with mind anew;
And to love God every second with heart anew...

Late Night Blogging...

2009-10-10T12:00:00.000-07:00

Ok, had tau huay wif boss and novem and zhen hui friday midnight! Expected liao, hor zhen hui? Hahaha! Just figured out today that manage work and church is very difficult. Esp when you've got alot of things to do and on your mind yet one week there's only 7 days... Sometimes I wished that I could do everything and please everyone... In this way, everyone wud be happy.

Jus finish baking abt 2hrs ago? Hee. Good attempt. 1st time baking something like that. WeiYi, you'll get wat you want on ur b'day, no worries!

The song "Heaven Knows" keep ringing in my head so i've decided to dl it and listen. It's playing and playing and playing. Been too K-popping these few weeks. Have to strike a balance!!!! I cant play much K songs on the guitar, esp when I cant speak Korean so no point listening too much also. But their entertainment shows are really, funny! Ahahaha! Miss watching tv. Have been some time since I slack on the bed and watch tv le. I think wun be doing that anytime soon. Timetable for work is still nt in yet. Fasturating! Quick quick quick! I needa sms the cell!!!!

Ok, need to be more optimisstic! Gonna do weights then take a good bathe and brace myself for tomorrow! Sayonara!

Today's Update

2009-10-07T11:12:00.000-07:00

YES, Update! I realised yst post forget to includ smth! I've been mass ufo-catching! Yea, and my hse is starting to have lottas of soft toys. Lucky I dun catch those super big ones!

Today ma, erm, had dinner wif Hamy @ Waraku de Pasta @ iluma. Chatted for abt 3hrs? Havent seen each other ever since the opening of The City Church. I wore The City Church tee today too! Glad to know that she's fitting in fine there and enjoying her time loving and serving God. It's a joy to always see her. She's like a lil sis whom I've seen grown up, someone from plain squeky irriation to passionate lover of God! Let the fire burn Hamy, BURN!!!

Aft dinner went to arcade to complete the fighting game twice! Jasper, buck up and defeat the last boss alrdy! Then we can vs!!! Then went to HLX Fusion to irrtate Alina Poh wif Jasper! TP-ians, boo!!! Hahaha! Alina, you'll still have to friend me!

Choc waffle for work tmr! Let's see what there'll be to update! Ciaos~

To Chow: We must train till we can catch all the big big dolls in the arcade!

Super Ultimate Blog Rot!

2009-10-06T11:46:00.000-07:00

Firstly, I wud like to apologise to my faithful readers!!! A big bow and a huge sorry that I haven't been updating for like forever... Yes, forever. So much has happened, so lil time to report. Let's see, where shud I start? O.o. Recently, had Empire State @ iluma wif Germ and O.K. So-so, nt really fantastic food... Earthquakes wif Thiam You, Wei Cong, Nic, Madeline and Joalina. Started working wif Thomas... Finally had Tau Huay wif Chow!!! xD Enjoying lunch/dinner wif cell every sunday aft service @ Edwinnnnnnnnnnnnnnn's father shop. I jus love to drag edwin's name everytime I call him. My habit! Heeeee! Many things have happen and many more to come! Been blog reading, the usuals and the unexpected ones! Reading unexpected ones is a skill I've learnt from my dear cell leader! YES, WEIYI you are DEAR but NOT GREAT OR AWESOME HAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Been training wif daddy's 15kg dumbbell. Forearms getting bigger, biceps too and I CAN SEE THE VEINS COMING OUT EVEN MORE!!! MUHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! Ok, I'm gonna be random and jump all over the place pls so bear wif me.

1)RJ's B'day!!! He's getting older and older and older!!! Get married!!! Heeeee!
2) Saw Jasmine Godsis today at iluma!!! As usual, dun trust her words....
3)Tau Huaying and chatting wif Chow is a new yet enjoyable expirence as we chatted and ate. Same taste, different matter. TauNi vs Tau Huay! At least we've both got you tiao!!!
4)Iluma is boringly fun, boring yet fun!!!
5)More work, much more. I see berrylite revolving ard my head...
6)Alina's nice for bringing me la mian hor fun that day! Thanks for being enthu and describing the food while jumping ard and calling my names like dunno how many times! (altho i dunno whether she'll see this...)
7)Paid my bills but haven't change ezlink, so dead...
8)Bro's back at home, for???
9)I tot abt weiyi... Out u go...
10)Now's Pst Yang and his sermon. "You can't just cast flesh out. Flesh, out you go...!"
11)Just realise it's easier to get her out of my mind than the her before her... Dead faithfulness... JW, you know arh!(wonder if he still reads my blog...)
12) It's coming closer!!! 20days, just 20days more to go!!!
13)Weiyi stop coming back into my head. Get behind me woman!!!
14)New flavours for nxt month cookies............. Wat???
15)Tmr no work!!! Yayay!!!
16)SNSD vs Kara = SNra... -.-''' Lame...
17)Samuel Lew, I'm waiting...
18) Finish doing weights like 2 hrs ago, shud nt do anymore...for now!
19)Basketball, basketball, basketballl!!
20)Wanton mee + Teh Peng.... Edwinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn~~~~~~
21) Bird cleverer than dog, true or false?
22)Miss my class! Nigel!!! Serene!!! Yuan Zhi!!!
23)Why the rain?
24)When's Joel mtg me? Anxious 0.0^
25)This is becoming so Daphne Lee.....
26) Some things I wished could be clarified but it doesn't matter to me anymore, let go means let go, no point wishing for something better.
27)YES, weiyi, let go liao...(Just thought she wanted to know...)
28) Just remembered, SARITA reads my blog!!! HI S-A-R-I-T-A!!!
29) The btm of my biceps is growing faster than the top... Jus realised.
30) Book medical checkup but first nd to go change address.
31) Soccer invitation in the making.
32) Berrylite designs, also in the making...
33) I want my Daisy milk now!!!
34) Dun have...
35) 3 box of Granola and no milk at home...
36) Germaine, when are you coming back to work???
37) Have to wash machine this thurs again, late homecoming...
38) Sometimes I wish daddy cud pick me up aft work!
39) Learn to bear wif all your dads, they fought all their lives to make sure we grow up and they wun wanna spend the other half of their lives fighting wif us. Jus love them, they deserve it.
40) And Heavenly Father too!!!
41) This is getting long!!!
42) How i wish everyone that reads my blog wud come tell me that they read it and I can personally thank them for caring about what's happening in my life. Pls, do tell me face to face so that I can shake your hands and thank you! I mean it!!!
43) Ok, dad's asking me to slp alrdy.
44)Really!
45) I wished I can blog more!
46) Til nxt time!

May the glory of God be manifested upon us, not becoz we're worthy but becuz He's great!

Recently...

2009-08-15T07:36:00.000-07:00

I know I haven't been updating recently. Many apologies! Gomen nasai! *Bow bow* Recently many things have been happening. Rediate, the grand opening of Iluma's berrylite, basketball, it's as tho there's an endless amount of task to be done. But all these things surprisingly doesn't seem to tire me out but instead, I always find myself having sufficient engery to pass them! Like what the Bible says, "Your strength is made perfect, when I am weak" and today in cell, Wei Jie preached about it too! No wonder when Caleb was a old man, he still insisted for the mountain, not because he thinks that he can overcome the giants but because he knows that God will give him the victory.

And the surprising thing is that I realised that God has been dealing with my issue of pride more and more. I lost to Gerard in both basketball and bowling but it doesn't seem to affect me much. Although I knew that I'm suppose to win but losing doesn't seem anywhere insulting to me anymore. And I'm glad it have become this way :)

And today, even in cell, God gave me a revelation. It's not true that God will not put us through what we can't withstand. It only happens due to His mercy. But more often than not, God put us through what we cannot withstand so that we'll realise that we can never save ourselves and that we will always depend on God. And I think in this season, dependency on God is very important as what Pst Yang said that we're going through metamorphesis and come to think of it, a caterpillar will only go through the cacoon process only if it knows that it will emerge as a butterfly. And similarly, as christians, we must always know that what God have in the end is good for us and that have faith in Him through the transforming process. Today, Ivan also said something in cell that struck my thoughts. He said how many times have we in our christian walk asked if God really exist. Come to think of it, I've never asked this question before and have never doubted the existance of God but I've always asked God when and why. It's surprising to find myself believing in the Potter but not His ways and timing. And I've understood on leaving everything to God.

Ever I will sing, only You wll I adore.
Glorify my Lord, only You will I love.
For the world will fade away...

Know Your Role

2009-07-24T19:55:00.001-07:00

Who ever thought that a listening ear needs a listening ear too?
No matter how much a listening ear tries to sought amongst those his listens,
It only boils down to the fact that he'll still end up listening.
If you only speak and never listen, it's bad.
But what if you only listen and never speak?
I'm only blowing a balloon that I'm hoping that will never burst.
But at least I know there's the One that releases the air.
He didn't promise a good trip, but He promised that if I hold His hands, I'll end up good.
He don't speak much at times, sometimes He do, but He'll listen that's for sure.
And I know and I know, He's always there for me, the way better than I think He is,
Coz He's more awesome than I know.

Goodfriends vs Girlfriend
I knew it was coming but it came a little too soon.
And the day will eventually come when we will need to draw a clear line.
We became buddies plainly because we can be who we are around each other.
When all was just about having fun and enjoying each other.
But now it just us trying to understand you,
And you understanding her.
Don't say the same things you say to your buddies to your girl,
Cause there'll be times when you'll have to make a decision between the two.
We'll all know what you'll choose,
But sometimes we hope it wouldn't come true.
When times with her ain't that good,
We'll be there to hear you curse and swear.
But when times take a turn for the better,
You'll be cuddling and loving her while we eat our bread and butter.
Last time it was just us,
Now it has become two "us"s.
I mean I don't mind her joining us,
But at least it must feel the same or a little better,
When we're just the four of us.
If you'll think and consider and see a little further,
Then maybe things will work out for the better.
But if your eyes only have space for you and her,
I'm sure that we're still be brothers.
If it rains, we'll still be your umbrella,
But when we come to meet each other,
I hope that we'll not reach the stage when we'll get comfortable,
without you...

The book of 101 for Caleb's "Strike a balance between G & G" goes:
Brothers before girl,
Sisters before guys,
Cause if you can't even treat your buddies the way they're supoose to,
Don't even think you can to your soulmate.
Cause you can't spell boyfriend or girlfriend without spelling friend.
Yes, your lovebird create lovely memories for you,
Don't forget your buddies do too.
If you think all of the above is not true,
There's still a undeniable truth,
When the day comes, I hope it won't,
When he or she have to dump you,
You'll have to go back to,
Your friends...

987FM: Hear only the good stuff...
C.A.T.S:... but take notice to the bad.

6th Day!

2009-07-17T11:09:00.000-07:00

Yesterday's dinner! Oven-baked Roti Prata with bananas and 4berries jam! Didn't take lunch so nothing to show tho!

Lunch for today! Beansprouts, cabbage and mapo tofu! Haha! Nice nice!
Dinner~ More veg and veg and veg! Ok, not so much of cooking... Today had a great time out with RJ, Daph, JW and MQ. Not so much of what we did but more of how we felt. Really think that we're getting closer and that it's really heart-warming. Esp Daph, haha, for someone who used to hate me now talking nicely to me over the phone, I stil have troubles getting used to it. May we grow closer and may what I think our future will be like be!

May my jackets keep your heart warm...

In The Blanks...

2009-07-15T05:56:00.000-07:00

Meal 6, packed rice with extra rice & 3 diff veg. Bought it opp iluma during break. Very filling but at the same time oily... Eeeeeee.... Haha! Who ever said that vegeterian can't grow fat???

Meal 7, vegeterian bee hoon behind SRJC. The side dishes are good and it only costs $2.50! The only spoiler is that the bee hoon isn't good... While having teh-o-gao at the coffee shop, I was inspired by the tea to write a chinese poemso here it goes:

Yin3 shui3 xin1 ai1, shui3 zi4 ku3.

Yin3 cha2 xin1 huan1, cha3 bu4 ku3.

Shi4 shui3 huo4 cha2 fen1 bu4 qing1.

Zi2 you3 xin1 zhi1 tian2 he2 chu4.

You know you wanted to wait,

why didn't you?

Taking bus 81 already tells you that you actually want to wait.

Why act all cool and tough saying things like "there's another time"

When you know that you want to see her so badly that you went all the way down?

Too clever or too stupid, too rational?

Thiam Siang,now you sit in your room regretting,

And there's nothing else you can do,

Than to wait for the another chance that you mention.

The question now is, when?

There's more photos to come! Keep a look out!

So near yet so far...

Tonight

2009-07-14T09:26:00.000-07:00

This was dinner for today. Vegetarian food at eastlink with Joo Keng, wif ice jelly. Then walked with JW to cold storage to buy chips. Guess who we saw? Evangeline and her "godbro". We said hi and chatted alittle. Yup. Haiz, it's sad to see someone away from God altho they expirenced His goodness. Then we went to macs to slack. Play abit of laptop and slack awhile. Saw Wong and gang too. Then after that headed home. Lunch had rice with chilli sauce........ Sorry no pic tho. I realised that when you eat beans, your fart becomes really smelly and what comes out too! Should avoid large consumption of beans!

The Start!

2009-07-13T21:25:00.000-07:00

Yup, here's the update to my Daniel Fast. It's been 2days! Woohoo! (Considering Sunday to be 1st) Here's what I had for lunch & dinner for day2, monday!

Meal 2, Oven-baked Roti Prata with baked beans! Very filling. Ate 4 pratas with a can of Ayam Brand Baked beans. Sedap!!!

Meal3: 4-berry jam bread rolls! Very nice but a little dry but still not bad!

Tonight meeting Joo Keng and gonna explore vegertarian places. Will update soon!

Red Alert!

2009-07-11T09:01:00.000-07:00

Red Alert is finally over and it ended with a bang. 1 whole month of hard work and preparation and finally boils down to today. It's amazing to see everything coming together nicely and that how God moved, unbelievable! I think the main thing is that we really enjoyed ourselves and that seeing how God moved just makes us feel that our hardwork was all worth it! The best part, Antarcus got saved! No one prompt him but he went up on his own! I'm starting to be more amazed & impressed at what God can do. Esther must still be amazed at this surprise! Salvation was actually 50% of those who came! Woah! Praise the Lord!

After that went to Aston with Esther, Antarcus & MQ. Coz cell went to tamp, some went to play ball some went to eat. But i was too tired to play and I thot i'll be meeting V so tamp seem alittle outta the way. Then we went to Esplanade to watch the fireworks. The spoiler was that it rained. Good thing is that we still got to watch it from the inside! We bought Carl's ice tea and we keep refilling! Hee! Went to Muji to get some stuff to eat with the ice tea too! I think we will visit Muji more often now! Hahaha! Overall, today seemed like a good day!!!

I'm glad that I'm getting the feeling of security again. Though I'm afraid I'll lose it but I trust that even if I do, you'll give it back to me again =)

Not Before Long...

2009-07-10T10:17:00.000-07:00

Yea peeps! We're less than 12hours away from RED ALERT!!! Woohoo! Really excited to see what God's gonna do! Looking at the program line up, indeed it's gonna be a different shift from all the previous OBDs!

Today, after work went to meet Keng & V. Then we went to The Cathy to have Astons. Then after we headed to Starbucks to slack and play UNO!!! Haha! Of course, like always, I'm the ultimate winner. Actually is a card game all about analytical skills and abit of luck. You have to analyse your cards and what are the cards that your opponents might have and then calculate the possibilities of different outcome to win or at least to minimise the loss. Yea, I know it's a just a game but don't you think it's like our walk with God? We have to analyse our own life with God and other people's life with God and calculate the best way to do the will of God and bring in the harvest! That's perhaps why I like to be involved in events cause we get to put our talents into use with other peoples' and when will calculate how to put them together and do the event nicely, we'll be able to see God move!

Really excited about tomorrow!

This Sunday after the service will mark Joo Keng and my Daniel Fast week! We're both gonna do daniel fast for the whole week till next sunday's service! I think it's pretty cool to fast with a buddy and at least you know you're not alone. So this week, I'm gonna post my meals on my blog and show you guys all the cool vegeterian good I'm gonna eat and cook! Stay tuned!

Last note, I've realised that this past few weeks I've been speaking to a few leaders and found out that I've learnt alot from them and it really opens my eyes and to see things differently. No wonder the Bible encourages us to seek counsel from the elders!!! Daph Lee, your an ELDER!!!! V, u2!!! hahahah!

2 days w/o you and i thought i can endure, but guess i just can't ignore when you talk... ...

Happy Birthday JW!

2009-07-08T08:55:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday JW! You're officially 18! More things to do huh! Had Delifrance with V, JK, MQ and B'day Boy. This time round no carrot cake! Hahaa! RJ and Daph met us for awhile too. Then had macs afterwards nad played UNO till like 11???

Had lots of thoughts while walking back home from the TP bus stop. Thinking whether I should take a second Diploma or give up the current one and enter NS and get another Dip after that....
Thought about friendships that I have in the past and currently. So many friends, some came , some went, some stayed. The newest friends I ever made are all from berrylite. New group of ppl. The rest are at least a yr and above. I've always treasured my friends but I've nv understood why they mus leave my life. Guess that's just life.

This week been working for 4 days bcoz got rehearsal on thursday so it's 4 instead of 5. Next week would be rather busy I presume. Gotta work still, plus school plus gonna meet up with that someone who nv meet already. Maybe I'll give that person a hug? Maybe. See how things go...

Spent this week on this very thought. Would I wanna be a rich and successful biz man in the future and give alot of money to the church and go for mission trips and stuff or will I just commit myself into full time and be an apostle or evangelist or missionary? I really don't know. Perhaps only God knows...

And also this week I've been trying to manage my finances better. Coz I've always thought that I already have everything that I wanted and saving was not a need but I realised, there are still things worth saving for in my life. My dream Cort 12-string guitar which costs $550, a BIG oven(who knows how many thousand that thing's gonna cost me?), a professional mixer which costs est $800, my bike liscence ($300++), a 2nd hand bike (1.6k) and more money to help me lead a better life. Now it really seem like alot of saving up when I list them down. I've gotta work harder, earn more money so that if it's by God's will, I will have those stuff I listed. I know about all those stuff about ppl blessing me with them or God will provide but I also believe in earning for my own stuff. At least that way, I won't be able to say that God didn't provide for me or anything.

This week's all about money!!!

Money won't help me buy you a happier life but it gives me a chance to buy stuff to make your life better...
Money won't draw your heart closer to mine but when it comes with my heart, it makes what I wanna do for you better.
But money can never change what I feel towards you...

Too much, too little...

2009-07-07T03:12:00.000-07:00

House now filled with too many females.
Having too little sleep.
Learning too many korean words.
Eating too little.
Working out too much.
Results too little.
Knees crackling too much.
Pain too little.
Expenses too much.
Income too little.
Thinking too much.
Doing too little.
Worrying too much.
Comforting too little.
Messaging too much.
Replies too little.
Problems too many.
Solution too little.
Me, too much.
God, too little.

When the music fades, and all is striped away, and I simply, come... ...
Nothing good happens everytime I want to do something good for you...

Fool Again...

2009-07-06T09:20:00.000-07:00

Didn't want me to know, don't see the point of letting me know or thinking that I don't wanna know... I really don't know... I never found the importance of asking you questions, maybe because I think you'll tell me everything. I never see the importance of asking you questions cause I know I'll find out eventually. But to me, to hear it from you means something different to me. Maybe, just maybe, I'm reading too much into it...

Yesterday, had rehearsal and danced the whole song for like 3-4 times? After that went to play basketball at simei. Played a few rounds then after lights out, I played alone with Glenn. It was more of a trashing session for me cause Glenn is much better than me.(Ya, I have to admit it...) ut learned quite a lot from playing with him. He gave me a few pointers too. Took a break then played a solo match with him again. Score 9-11. I lost... But was pretty glad that I could pull the score so close even though I know he's not really giving his all. But learned quite alot and played better. Now just awaitng for my shoes... Had supper with Elisha before walking with him from Simei home. Had a very long chat. It's been long since we had such a long heart to heart talk. Talked about the past, all the times we spent together, time really flies. I'm really glad to have a buddy like him and that really hope that we could create more memories together! To a better future together, cheers!!!

That's all for now, sayonara~

Your giggles, your smiles always brightens up the darkest of days... Every small actions that you do, intentionlly or not, never fails to make me feel blessed. But everytime you break a piece of my heart, I'll have to piece it up myself again...

Different People...

2009-07-03T20:48:00.000-07:00

Here's a little update. Yesterday did opening @ iluma! 1st time assembling the yogurt machine.(usually it's my job to tear it apart...) Was pretty interesting. Then mixed the mango flavored yogurt. Had Curry Pork Rice for lunch and Zheng Hui had Fried Rice. Both our lunches have 2 pcs of Yogurt Curry Chicken and 2 roti prata to go along. Yup, caused I cooked and brought it there for Zheng Hui too! :) When we finished our lunch, we wished that we could sleep cause we're so bloated.... Then Liza had a bad headache so she couldn't make it for work and Rey can't seem to find anyone else to replace her. So Zheng Hui thought that he would just stay through till closing. Haiz, and I thought Zheng Hui will not be having dinner with me... Then, Rey say Marc will be back so Zheng Hui can go have dinner with me! Woohoo!!!

Yup, met the rest at Vivo. There was MQ, JW, Doris (Lao Jie Jie), Janice, Zheng Hui & me. Yup, pretty weird huh. 2 regulars of berrylite and 4 employees. We went to White Dog Cafe to have dinner. Wait a while for the food ut it reached eventually. First we had Sauteed Wild Mushrooms for starters. Then each of us had our individual main courses. Zheng Hui had Pork Knuckles, Doris had Salmon, Janice had Oxtail (moooooo~), monster had Pacific Dory and I had Medley Seafood Pasta. For drinks, Zheng Hui had Hoegarden, JW had Bailey's Coffee, Janice and Doris shared Volcano and I had Twister! The whole meal was satisfactory and we spent like an hour plus there? Chatting and loosening up abit. After that, we went to Haagen-Dazs for desserts. It's pronounced as "Hah-genn-daz-s". But to me and JW it's Hellgen Dazs. Primarily is because of the price. Monster had a brownie, Doris & Janice shared a single scoop with cone and I had a double scoop with crepe and caramel syrup. The caramel syrup was totally useless..... My dessert add up to a $18++..... Was like, arghhh!!!! But was nice nevertheless...(Other than the part that I'm paying alot to get fat.......) Glad that everything worked out fine...

I enjoyed myself, did you?

"There's no such thing as your world or my world. As long as we are standing at the same spot, looking at the same direction." ~ Ji Hoo

Yesterday & Today

2009-07-02T00:37:00.000-07:00

Yup yup, yesterday was working @ iluma morning shift. 1st time doing opening there and 2nd time doing opening for berrylite. And what's best is that when I arrived there, there was no one. No Zheng Hui no Marc no Novem. I thought maybe they were late. Instead, they are only coming earliest at 2pm! So from 1030 to 2pm is Caleb only... Ya, indeed, did everything myself plus the lockers are locked so have to think of solutions. Maybe this is a sign that they trust me? Haha... Saw Sabby there too! Was surprised to see Sabby at berrylite! Caught a bear at the arcade while having break. 1st try! Woohoo! Went for rehearsal after that. Chow was there too! Hahaha! Maybe he should learn dancing too!

Today went to SuperCut for a haircut. It's been like 3 years since I last went there! But ya, the ppl are still nice :) Then went to Courts MegaStore to get a brand new Kenwood mixer which cost me $168! There goes half of my pay... But was pretty glad I got it :) Hee!

Now cooking dinner to pack for work later... Today doing closing and washing the machine at iluma.... Late nights again :)

Sorry...

2009-06-30T10:36:00.000-07:00

Today, I've learnt the lesson of loss and gain, the hard way. Not my choice but ya, I'll have to go through it. Seriously, I didn't expect things to turn out like this but, it did... You keep a secret for one, another of another and it's link but none of those two should come to know of the other. But when one insist on knowing, you're putting the other's friendship on the line. To tell or not to tell, that's the question. In the end, I've decided not to. Not because one meant more than a friend than the other but because I'm a man of my word. I promised both not to breathe a word and I have to do it. Guess it just came with the cost of a good friend. Haiz. A high price to pay for another... And all I did was to have both their interest at heart. So much for being nice, and now it seems like my fault... Now I understand why many people choose to have few good friends. Cause the more you have, the more tough decisions you have to make. Life never gets easier.

Looks like days ahead in berrylite gonna get tougher...
(5mths in berrylite, how long more?)

As You Please...

2009-06-28T08:34:00.000-07:00

Dunno what to type now...

One thing's for sure, I'm giving you more breathing space...

But if you ever need me or want me near, I'll not be too far away...

Love is not about posession but it's about making sure the person gets loved...

Updates!!!

2009-06-27T20:34:00.000-07:00

Yea, some updates!!!

Yesterday did some weights, lifted my fav 15kg dumbells for about 40 odd times?? You know when you lift weights of that much, there're some immediate effects. So I looked at the mirror and was adoring my veins!!! Wahahahaha! Vain, totally! As if like I don't have enough veins popping outta my arms. Even in photos they appear! Woohoo! Manliness!!!! Anyway, was also trying to catch up with daddy's biceps! His is 1inch bigger so that's not so far away! Muhahaha!

Had Captain's Ball competition for Zone Event yesterday. Was fun, great! Woohoo, Weiyi the noob is a great catcher!!! Justina's good in scoring too. Madeline's butterfingers........ Plus Nigel, Noobcholas and me, I thought we could win, but it's ok, we played well and had fun too! Had to leave earlier for dance rehearsal so missed most of the BBQ. Sadded... Why do things always have to clash? Haiz...But was great seeing the younger ones taking up roles in the zone. At least now you don't see me at the pit anymore but there's Wei Jie, Joseph, Ebinezer and even Joanne helped! :) It's great to see them serving and heartwarming too as tho your younger bros have grown up! Dance was till 11 plus? Tiring but fun and hilarious as usual! Juli came to inspect at the first portion of practice. Stress! 13 more days! Thiam Siang PRACTICE and PERFECT IT!!!

Had a great chat with Daph Lee while walking her home fromt the bus stop. Food, food and all about food. Ok la, maybe a bit of other stuff but alot of food! Haha. Nxt time know who to jio out to eat alrdy! Heee.

Watched BOF Ep6 and 7. Ep6 saddening la, jio wo... Haiz. Wanna faster dl the rest of the series and watch!!!

Actually called you last night, wanted to have a nice chat and say goodnight but didn't expect so many things to happen and in the end, falling asleep on the phone... I know you must be so wanting to slap my face! Hahaha!

Note to Goo Jun Pyo: I get how you feel now, when everytime you WANTED to do something nice or did something nice, things took a different turn but don't give up!

Note to Jan Di: We all know how the story ends but, brave thru it and endure. Things will eventually work out and you will know how to make the decisions. Smiles.

That's all currently. Got a busy week ahead! Sayonara!

Words within words, but do you know what is to be thought seriously and what is plainly without depth? Depends on how much you understand, me...

Dying Body...

2009-06-21T08:46:00.000-07:00

Yup, just finished basketball and bathing. Mus have wondered y i'm so fast. Simply because I ran back home. Guess it's something stupid to do after a day of basketball, but guess I'm just trying to tire myself out. My calfs almost had cramps just now and my knees went soft twice. My calfs suppose to be my best assets but even now, they're failing me... And my knees, all the worst. Since late last year, I've already been expirencing knee pains. It was gone for awhile but now, it seems that it's coming back again. When I was running back, my usual sitch problem appeared too and had chest pain also. Guess that this body is failing me abit too soon. That day my nose was bleeding and today had a bad cough for a short period of time. My low blood pressure have been taking it's effect and my high body temp simply just keeps me dehydrating. Lucky my back didn't surface any problems for now.

I wonder, is my body condition linked to my emotions or isit that plainly, it's failing? But what I've figured out is that I'm gonna push it to the limits. Dun care how it is now. Gonna do intense excercise then plus work plus dance, this should keep me occupied till school reopens. Then, gonna do runs and gym. If my body can last, I'll just do a full body check up at the end of the year to see how many parts of my body is mulfunctioning.

Sigh, sometimes I just wonder, is it that you're plain tired or did my words do not mean anything. It seems that everything I said just fall into deaf ears and that you find me not saying anything... Sometimes I wondered that if I should have said anything at all...

The blind just leads the blind...... Hah, wanna learn guitar? There's many good teachers ard. But him? Haiz, just dun wanna say anything. It'll just irritate you and then you'll probly start saying things like why I say j liddat. But ya, his skills we all know. That's just enough. And it's not jus only me thinking this way... ...

When you realise everything you said means so little, even talking seems scary.......

Turn Of Events...

2009-06-20T10:38:00.000-07:00

I'm glad that things turned out fine. After everything that happened, for once I tot it will be done for. But like they say, if you don't see the worst, you won't treasure the best. Figured out that maybe it was a blessing in disguise. At least now, we laid everything out and we better understand each other. Guess I'm just "sticky" arh? Pretty hard to get rid off? :]

"When I saw the ugly side of you, I realised how beautiful you really are..."

His Mercys Are New Every Morning :]

2009-06-19T17:30:00.000-07:00

Yup, I'm up early cause I'm having dance rehearsal later. Got a little time at hand so decided to do a quick update.
Woke up today, looked at my phone, and yup, there was only 1 message. When I saw the time it was sent, I was a little irritated.
1st, 4.50am, you should already be asleep!!!!!!!!!
2nd, I should have been awake to reply you.......
Guess I'll just write it according to the way you messaged me.
Nope, I'm not pinning my hopes very high, I'm still leaving my options open, just that it's higher on you. Yes, I agree that it's not the time yet that's why I said 3years. It's not the time for me yet either cause I'm going thru a rough period in my life now and that every decision I make will affect my future greatly so I have to take my stpes carefully. Yup, I see you as my goodfriend too, like I said in the previous post, I treat everyone equally well, ok maybe alittle better to you but ya, still goodfriends only :) As for the word "sticky", let's just forget about it la... I also dunno what's up with that word.... But please dun blame JW, he's just trying to help. He's my close friends and there's no secrets between us, so ya, dun blame him. He's suffering as well.... I'm sorry too for doing that but ya, I won't do it again.
Spend your day with a smile ok?

Anger comes according to the poportion of love you give to that person but forgiveness comes as quick as the distance you place the person to your heart.

"I'll be there for you, won't you be there for me too?"-Theme song from the show, F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

Hi, Yogurt Ice Cream For You?

2009-06-19T08:00:00.000-07:00

Yes, that's what I have to say the whole night to my customers... The sales hit the expected rate, the busy hours kept me occupied, and I pretend nothing happened. Or at least I tried. But everytime I want to smile to my customers, I would just remember the times you told me to give my brightest smile. Then, I found it hard to smile... I tried to joke but guess everyone knows Caleb is trying to hide something. No one laughed. When work ended, I found myself alone, dunno who to turn to, where to go... When there's nothing else for me to do, I just can't avoid the thought of you... Tried messaging you but guess I just can't hide what I was feeling... Thought of the incident this morning and try to find myself a excuse to apologise, none...

Why must he tag you in his notes, why must he talk to daphne about you, why must you spend so much time doing his notes? Still remembered your words last night. You said you were trying to do a quiz... You lied. It was his notes. And you said it was difficult and you can't think therefore you couldn't finish it. And I know you're disappointed that you can't. So, I just tried to help you by asking him to tag you in easier notes so that you don't have to rack your brains and can't complete them on your first try. Guess I was too clever, it appears that my concerns were too much for you. Hah. In the end, all I got was "Why you anyhow go tell jasper things?" Pls, read the comments properly. I just said you couldn't finish, isn't that what you said? The rest is my own thoughts and his. And I got the blame? Many thanks arh? And then all that he said seems appropriate? Hah!

If it was about us, I don't mind taking the blame, in fact I always say it was my fault. But this, don't you think it's abit too much? And all you said was forget about the comment thing... Is that your form of sorry? Or was it how you try to save our friendship? Try harder...

What's worst is that my bestfriend have to come and tell me someone thinks I'm sticky. Think for yourself, ever since your bro warned us, how have I been sticky? Everytime that I asked you out, I asked others along... Jun Wei and Daph and your bro. I treat everyone equally as friends so I asked you along. And please, most of the times that if we went out alone is because someone had something urgent or you want something but no one went with you so I just go with you. I was always the one filling in your empty slots and making it up for other ppl. When was it your turn? I don't mind but please don't take me for granted and say stuff about me.

Guess everything that I did, the feelings that I felt, was afterall, unimportant...

Plasters feel the saddest because they always help people heal up their wounds but when they've fufiled their duties, they get blamed that they've become dirty and get thrown away...

Difficult...

2009-06-18T22:10:00.000-07:00

When it's about him and me and we're talking about you, it always seem I on the losing side... Yea, perhaps I just not in that position to do anything... Sigh... Emotionless? Hah! The word to cover up what I'm feeling... I just don't feeling like doing or saying anything now... The lesser the better, at least I won't make mistakes and make you angry...

Leave me alone for now... ...

I hear voices in my head,
they cousel me they understand,
they talk to me...

Forgiveness...

2009-06-18T11:56:00.000-07:00

Everything that I wrote on the previous post did not come to pass, most. Yes, listened to metal, yes, went cycling, yes went to work, the rest, no...
But why? Guess I can't stay calm when I know you're mad at me... For just a short span of a few hours and I can't take it. Maybe this tells both you and me, how much you mean to me. The thought of what you are going through just propels me to apologise. And I glad I did. I'm glad I cleared up the mess I've created, fill the grave I dug. Thanks for all the forgiveness... Smiles :]

Met you. Went to Macs and eat with you. You bought delicious durian puffs! Yummy! :) Cycled with you. Took photos with and of you. Be late for work with you :) Didn't get to serve you. Had my dinner with you. You waited till work ended. Sent you home. Talked with you. Bid you goodnites. Smiles :]

When it's all about you; your smiles, your giggles, your every movement, makes me wanna be closer to you...

PS* "When I talk about her, you start behaving strangely and do things strangly"-Novem, Marc's GF

The Left Way

2009-06-17T09:24:00.000-07:00

The left way, the opp of the right way, hee.

Tonight as I danced along with the chimes of metal songs,
As I indulge myself within the voices in my head.
Then maybe till 4 or 5, go for a run, have some sweat.
Come home, have a little breakfast then do the 15kg dumbbell.
Then after, do jumps and knees with ankle weights or an hour.
In the morning, have a walk in the park.
Then after go cycling at ECP.
Of course, I still have to work.
Maybe skip my dinner.
And hope everything will turn out,
fine...

When things doesn't turn out right, don't cry, smile and confuse yourself. That way, you'll lose yourself within insanity... Smiles :]

Delayed Update...

2009-06-16T21:03:00.001-07:00

Sorry for neglecting the blog, gomen nasai~ Been really busy since the last update... Many times happen, yea, MANY! Some, I'm glad for, some not, but He says, "ALL things work well for those who loves Him!" Now, let's do some peotry!

"To whom I write to, to whom that may see,
I pray that the person, will know that it's he(she).
A letter I write, to far far away,
where stories end in a happy way.
I want to find a path that never ends,
where joy and bliss I comprehand.
As I put up my clothes and leather,
I went forth for such another.
For 3 years I thought, I've found the one,
Yet, we became friends and that's all it's done.
Another 3 I spent, thinking that this must be the one.
It all seem like a fairytale, till unhappy ever after spilt.
Wish I may, wish I might,
Now I see another one in sight.
I thought to myself how nice it would be,
if it will be the last I'll wait for 3.
The smiles and laughter that came from her,
To me it was like no other.
The past 2 kept my heart racing, but this kept it warm.
As warm as a home, as sweet as honeycomb.
But prince charmings I see in sight,
As well as knights that were as shining as light.
I look upon my linen clothes,
and thought, "Argh, who am I?
To compete for such a rose,
where do I stand among one of those?
An orge is strong and tall,
But he is also dull and norm.
A prince, a knight, whatever maybe,
It seems like just only a sliver lining.
To hear your woes, I'll lent my ears,
To share your joy, I'll be there.
But if it's your hand that I yearn,
It's seems like just a dream.
But it's up to Him who's up there to decide,
And I pray for a happy ending for you not I.
Because to see you smile is my delight,
Even if it costs my dear life."

Yup, that's all for this time :) Ja!~

A lonely road, cross another cold state line,
miles away from those I love, purpose hard to find.
While I recall, all the words you spoke to me.
Can't help but wish that I was there,
back where I love to be.

Yes, Caleb Is Sick...

2009-04-16T10:15:00.000-07:00

I am officially tortured by the fever virus. Woke up with back ache, sore throat, headache and ulcer. Didn't have lunch coz no appetite. Dinner had porridge. Yes, I want to get well but I know I'm not getting enough rest. Haiz, what to do leh? Work today was hectic also but I survived somehow... But tomorrow's gonna be a fine and long day! Baking strawberry cheesecake then going to iluma see Aaron Kwok! Woohoo! Just hope that everything's gonna be fine. And I failed to upload my new song to blogger or youtube... Sadded...

Bloodlust...

2009-04-14T09:43:00.000-07:00

I can smell blood, not far a distance away. I shout out a warning, it prepares to attack. I grid my teeth and refrain my blood lust. I pulled away. Stay calm, be calm. Anyways, it's weakspot is in my control. I grined. I licked my teeth and feel the sensation of it's sharpness running against my tongue. It didn't take long for him to come to me. He humbled like a puppy against a wolf. He knows if he attacks, he will be delayed and be at a losing end. I knew I was in control :) Maybe this will keep my bloodlust down abit. But I'm just afraid of the day I'll snap and I won't know at who but serious. For now, the demon hides deeper in and he will be sealed unless someone tears the seal. I'll await and see :)

How?

2009-04-13T11:37:00.000-07:00

Caught in between 3, it's neither's fault, just mine... I can just wish and pray all is perfect but the truth is that it isn't. I can say as many stuff I want, cause I'm intellectual but I'm also emotional. I can tell one to give up, tell another the same but I'm the one not giving up here and not letting others have a chance. Love is not about ourselves but about the other one. If we focus on too much on what we can gain then it isn't love but perhaps just something to fill a hole in our heart. Do you really love the person or love what he deos to you? Love is never about gaining but it's about giving. If having the other makes you happy, does it make the other party happy the same way? Love is heartwarming and heartfelt but if it causes pain, maybe we ain't loving the right way? Love is happiness, not sadnees, an effiort not a feeling, reality not a fantasy, accepting not perfect, complex yet simple...

My Heavenly Father,
Loves me with all His heart,
Whether I'm good or bad,
Whether I fall or stand.
He only wants goodness for me
Although He lets me go through the fire.
But as the flames purify me as man,
I go through it with His hands.
He protects me, comforts me and will never forsake me.
That's the love that He gives,
Is my underserving gain...

My Oven!

2009-03-30T10:44:00.000-07:00

Finally, yes, finally i got my new oven! And the first thing i baked is mango cheesecake! I think I'm gonna bake alot now on! Maybe do a few roast in my oven too! I think Daphne Lee will feel like killing me while Emily the siao cha bo will feel very happy bugging me for her butter cake!
Days ahead just feels so flavourful!

Charred!

2009-03-23T11:43:00.000-07:00

Yes, I'm almost burnt out! 3 days of Loudfest plus non-stop activities from then on... Today woke up with a sore throat and a bad running nose. My eyes were slightly swollen too. Must be the lack of sleep and vitamins. The 4 ulcers in my mouth hurts too... The cuts on 2 of my fingers are not recovering well either... Just hope I won't drop, at least till school starts again... My schedule for the next few weeks are also packed... But in the midst of all these things, I'm pretty glad that I can still feel God walking with me. I guess I just have to tune my body to this lifestyle tho. It's like back to school, the only time to sleep is the bus and lectures...

Recently, I came up with a theory:

Goal+Determination+Passion = Overdrive

And it's the same even with our walk with God! If we have those 3 things, we'll go into overdrive mode and we can really see God moving!

And I guess I better sleep now. Have to wake up early tomorrow... Cya!

Sorry For The Lack of Updates...

2009-03-01T18:46:00.000-08:00

Firstly, yea, a big big sorry for the lack of update recently. Been really busy so rarely have time. Please pardon me :)

Just finish doing the Mass Media class at Victoria Sec with Caleb, Paul, Jonathan and Mi Yih! 2nd time I've been there! The first was last year for drama. It's was really great being able to go there and the students there actually remembers me! I still remember that Victoria was one of my dream schools to go to when I was taking my PSLE but I got into Springfield instead :) The students there are quite responsive and had quite a fun time with them! Hope to go there again!

Another update is about my job at Berrylite! Passed by probation period and that I can get a 20% of the ice cream yogurt!!! Plus last night just got back a tub of Pina Colada! My 3rd fav. flavour! And my boss decided to use 5 of my recipes for sale including, sandwich, salad and snack. This week we'll doing the fine tuning on wed night and most likely they will be up in 2 or 3 weeks time!

Update on ministry. GCAM just finished a drama about 2 weeks ago during the valentines event. It was rather rush but we manage to pull it off and I think for the team and the crowd, we really had a great time! On Parents' Connection side, Liu Yan will be leaving and passing the role of Ministry head to another person. *sobs* We will miss you boss! I will miss you rushing me and editing with me on the design of the newsletter! Who's the new head we still don't really know yet but I'm put in charge of the Meet The Parents Session whie Timothy is in charge of the next newsletter. I must really pray and think alot!

That's all for now but I should be updating sometime soon again! Cya!

Updates!

2009-01-21T09:58:00.000-08:00

Firstly, congrats Pst Marlou! New house! I'm so gonna go there at the end of the year!!! Excited, excited, excited!!!
The next upcoming event would be Colours service! Combined congregation service! First time attending, looking forward to it! At City Hall somemore, can go shopping or feasting after that also!!! Weeeeeee!
Chinese New Year is also somewhere around the corner! Have you shopped for new clothes yet? If not, HURRY!!! Reecommended places would be Zara, FourSkins, Massino Dutti, Foever 21, Club Marc, G2000, Puma! Great deals man! I am so in love with my new clothes! 3 tops, 2 burms, 1 pair of shoes!!! And I'm getting the black sleeveless hoody from Fox maybe Friday? Reunion dinner's on that day too! And RJ's coming out on that day too!!!
Celebrated Mummy's B'day on Tuesday nite too, just me and her at Waraku, nice food!!!
And, my hair colour is gonna change again. Yea, I know, I just dyed my hair not long ago... Yea, I figured out that it's inappropriate to go visiting with yellow hair. Thanks for those who found it nice! Was a great encouragement! Those who don't, thanks for even taking notice...
These few days have been tiring. Lack of sleep... Alot!!! Yea, many stuff have been happening and I'm almost burnt out... But, in the midst of everything, God still show Himself great and I can really see Him helping me to go through this period of time. I'm learning alot through all these and it's been really great to be even in this situation.

Many thanks:

Joboy - for updating me with the things that are happening in Philippines!
V Kwan - for chatting with me and giving me advices
Mum - for the great dinner
Di - for meeting up often with me, love you loads ;)
Rev. Lim Joo Konfusnism - for the $2 late coming penalty
God - for being a great God!

If life's getting boring, maybe because you focus too much on yourself and you don't see the beautiful colours of the wind...

My Different Hair Colour...

2008-12-27T11:19:00.000-08:00

Yea, I guess the colour of my hair is still unknown to some who have yet to see me and I think I can disclose it pretty much now. But first, alittle on the past few days.

After my trip to Philippines, I had to help out at Christmas @ Katong and then after that my zone had Stripey Christmas BBQ so I was busy up my neck. Finally have some time to catch a breather. Was busy preparing jelly last nite also for Christmas although I know it's a little late. Came up with 3 flavours! Lychee Ice Cream, Grape Soda and Chrysanthemum Green Tea. Would be giving them out at church. Got a few cards from V and the guys and a greeting from San Tiago City! Love you guys loads! Yea, and of course dyed my hair.

Did pretty much of thinking these few days and it somehow brought me somewhere. But yea, there's still decisions to be made and choices to consider. I really thank God for the people He put in my life and all that He have done for this year. When I look back at the year, I can see His hand working upon my life.

Finally, my hair colour. It's YELLOW! Yes. I wanted it to be blonde but it somehow turned out to be brighter, much brighter. Min Yih said that I can blend well with the Ah Bengs in Bugis. She also suggested that I dye my eye brows the same colour. Hahah! The guys thought I look like a Ah Beng too! Caleb Garcia didn't really had a shock though. Heez. And Zhi Kang called me Chicken Feather although I don't what's the link with my hair but it's easier for him to remember me this way than my name! Hahaa! Abel said I look like japanese. But the colour of my hair didn't really bother me much and I don't see the point if anyone even try to make a whoohaa outta it. As in every year my hair will change a colour. The first time brown then to blue highlights then now yellow. Yes, I know Christians should try to keep their hair colour original but as youth we should experiment abit la, but of course within limits la. You can't expect me to wait till 40 plus then come and dye my hair with all the funny colours right? And most prob, this hair will stay with me the most 2 months? At the meantime, I'll just enjoy the colour with my Club Marc Cap. They actually go well together! Although the guys when they see me wear that cap, they'll kill me! Haha!

But looking back at my life, I'm really glad that God changed me. From a nerd to a hardcore gamer to an Ah Beng and now me, I can't really express my gratitude. Still remember the days where me and my friends will hang out at the Lan Shops for 13 hours staring and playing games. In upper secondary, getting into fights, rebelling and all sorts of other stuff. But I'm pretty much a contradicting child. I do the worst of things a student can do except smoking, drugs, sex, getting involve in a relationship. True. But I always got the best of grades. Every term I had to get best in subject for at least one of my subjects and I did, without fail. I'm not rich, neither did my parents believe in no violence upbringing so I'm sure I'm pretty not much of a spoilt brat. So, I dunno if I'm a good student or a bad student. Even my teachers can't decide. Cause they liked me and I respect them pretty much but somehow I always got into trouble. Either my hair was too long or spiky or I didn't hand up my homework or I'm to loud or something else. But I could assurely say that I gave them wonderful memories that they can remember and I thank God for that.

I'm really glad that my teenage years are spent with God and that He sees me through everything. Even now in Poly and I'm sure that my future is ensured as long as I walk with Him around me.

I know my future's in Your hands,
All of my hopes and dreams and plans.
You gave me strength to live and faith to succeed,
I believe in You because
You believed in me...

It's Him Again!!!

2008-12-18T08:36:00.000-08:00

Yea, it's my brother!!! After my trip from Philippines, I miss the food there, so I bought quite a few back. Like cheese cake and C2 ice lemon tea. First my bro ate my cheese cake, now he finished the whole bottle of my C2 lemon tea! And he says he thought it's bought but my grandma! The worst thing is that in the fridge got 12 packets of chilled drinks and my C2 is room temp, he still drank my C2! No one will believe he even if he says he thought that it's bought by my grandma! It's not the first time furthermore! Grrr! Have you met people where they never let you share their food but they always expect you to share yours? The Bible says do to others what you want what others to do to you. ENDURE!!! Haiz, maybe I need to buy a safe for my food... It's like nonsense right? Who ever buys a safe for food? But instead I find myself needing one... Sharing is not the problem but rather asking is the crux. When people don't ask, I get fed up! And esp my bro who understands my temper... Only God knows why he's my brother... A safe is the next item on my buy list... Ja na~

Before I'm Off

2008-12-08T07:01:00.000-08:00

Yes! I'm gonna be in the airport in like 8 more hours. Flying to Phillipines! 1st mission trip! Woohoo! Jus hope will have time to shop! 7 days! I will miss singapore! Will be back in monday at 6.15pm! Terminal 1! Weee.... By the time, the rest would alrdy be at Genting! JW dun be sad! Haahaa!U still have me! Anyone who reads this post before I'm off can put wat they wan on my blog and I'll try and get it! Other than that, I'm sorry! ;)

One Dessert Recipe Up!

2008-11-30T10:31:00.000-08:00

Yea, here's a recipe for a warm dessert! Weee! Ok, it's not really a recipe, or maybe I can just say that it's a preparation for a dessert.

Ingredients:

-1 tube ready-to-eat sweetened grass jelly or chin chow or whatever you wanna name it.....

-1 bottle of Vitasoy Soya Bean Milk (damm cheap!)

Method:

-Cut grass jelly into bite size cubes. (Guys: 3cm by 3cm; girls: 2cm by 2 cm)

-Put the grass jelly cubes into a metal bowl and pour in the soya bean milk.

-Cook mixture over high heat for 5mins before bringing it down to a simmer for 5 more mins.

-Leave to settle on the table for 5mins before serving.

*Note*

Different people have different preference for sweetness so you may wanna add water to the Soya Milk if it's too sweet for you.

And, Happy Birthday Lennon!

Thinking, Pondering and Hoping...

2008-11-26T10:56:00.000-08:00

Yea, it's pretty late and I'm over at RJ's place making sure that he won't have a heart attack.... He won't. Hahaha! He just had a muscle spasm attack, if an attack is what you called it, in the afternoon. Shud be fine within a couple of days.
Today, woke up with alot of thoughts in my mind, got alot to decide and I just know that they have to be sorted out but it seems that my mind can't function at the moment. Haiz, maybe it's just me.... Maybe cause I expect too much from myself or maybe because I dream dreams too big for me to handle, either way.
Recently been thinking abt a question which I can never find an answer to it. When you drip a drop of oil into a glass of water, no matter how you mix, they just can't be blended together. So is it the oil's fault or the water's fault? It just seem both party is trying just as hard, or so I think, but it isn't working. Scientists says that when you break a yolk and mix it in, they'll get mix together. But what exactly is the yolk? God, HELP! It's fine, I'm still sane.
Another thought is my future. My dreams, my ambitions, my goals and where I want to be... Something I know that can't be messed with, something that isn't trival at all. But how can a 18 year old guy know whether he's taking a right step for his future? It's not about falling but rather it's about feeling sick pulling yourself up after too many times of failure. I know I'm gonna make it big in life, and I'm definitely not joking, but when I look at my life now, I know the path to success isn't gonna be a bed of roses.
Too much, I'm thinking too much. There's other more thoughts for me to entertain. Thiam Siag, concentrate, grind your teeth, pull it through and see the day! And Wendy, Happy Birthday!!! I wish you here because, it's closer to me then anywhere else...

I remember what you don't,
You didn't thought I would but I didn't let go.
I remember the days we spent together,
I remember the way we smiled at each other.
I' m sorry to say, things have changed.
I've learnt to let go.....
<<[E]>>

Recipe Update!

2008-11-11T09:59:00.000-08:00

Yea, you didn't see wrongly! Yup, I'm uploading an recipe. Usually, unless you beg me or cry infront of me or else, you won't know my recipes. But this recipe I'm sharing today is not really a very complicated dish. It's just something nice to fill your stomach in the night if you're too lazy to go out for supper. I've decided to name it "Old Almond Paste". Yup, if you're a fan of traditional food, you'll probably enjoy this dish.

Ingredients:
-1 packet of instant Almond Paste (I would recommend Hollyfarms')
-3 pieces of Soda Biscuits or Cream Crackers (They do not have cream in it!)
-Egg white from an egg
- 3/2 tsp of Ground Almond Powder (Optional)
-1 tsp of white seasame seeds (Optional)

Steps:
Firstly, boil about 350ml of water.

As you wait for the water to boil, pinch the 3 pieces of biscuit into a bowl, not too fine but not too chunky too.

When the water boils, stir in the egg white and remove from heat.

Then, empty the packet of instant almond paste into a bowl.

Pour in the boiling water with the egg white and mix. If it's too sticky for a paste, you can add in a little more water. If it's too watery then too bad.

When the instant almond paste dissolve totally, mix in the ground almond powder (if don't have also nevermind).

After that, pour in the pinched biscuit crumbs into the paste and stir.

Lastly, garnish with the white seasame seeds.

Enjoy.

This recipe is rather simple and if you can't cook, you can prepare this dish too. I wouldn't call it a dessert cause it's rather filling and it's not really sweet like a dessert but rather it's a very flavourful dish to have for supper.

Tips: If you want it for breakfast, here's a little change that you might wanna consider.

-Use plain cereals instead of biscuits
-Use almond flakes instead of almond powder
-Use dried blueberries instead of white seasame seeds

That's all for now! Stay tune for more recipes to come!

Buffet!

2008-11-03T09:47:00.000-08:00

Yea, you saw it, BUFFET! Had dinner at Holiday Inn The Atrium! RJ and I went there to gorge ourselves! Hahaha! Here's what I had.....

I started off with a customed pasta. I went over the counter and choose my sauce and ingredients and they cook it on the spot for me. I had pasta in white cream with mussles and green peppers.

I went on to have salad with sadly I forgot to take it down coz it looks too delicious. It's mixed peppers with walnut, alfalfa sprouts dressed with Italian dressing. Sweet!

Next up on the menu was sushi and sashimi! Yay! Too bad they didn't have maguro but the skyfish sashimi made up for the lost. The sashimi was handled on the spot, which I was rather glad it was. The freshness of the sashimi was not bad but for the sushi, alittle too long on the shelves. On the overall for the sushi part, average.

Then I had rice with beef stew and seafood casserole. I pretty enjoyed the beef stew as it was pretty strong in flavour. Another plus for the stew was that they included beef stomach which just completes the dish. Gomen, I didn't take it down either.

By this time, most peeps out there would already feel their stomach filling up but I'm not satisfied yet. So I went on to have curry beef with veal chin and wedges! The curry beef was alittle tougher than expected. The veal chin made up for the curry beef. Marinated with red wine, the meat was tender and every piece came with a tendon. Perfect!

Since it's alot of meat and a little of other stuff, I came to settle with a bowl of potato soup with bagette and foccacia. The potato soup was great and was definitly on par with what you'll expect from a resturant. The bread was good too, crispy on the outside soft on the inside. And you get to toast them too! Too bad Wendy wasn't there to enjoy the butter bread. Heee!

Dessert! Sweet treats for a sweet tooth! Yea, there was waffle and fruits and ice-cream. There were also about 15 types of condiments so the range was more than usual! I tried to create something like a Halloween ice-cream waffle but yea, not scary. The kiwi sauce was great, not too sweet, just nice. The soaked oranges were also juicy and sweet! The whole dish just balnced off between sweetness and sourness!

On the whole, it was about a 7 course meal if I were to do a check list. The service was pretty good over there and I would rate it one of the best. 9.2 /10 I think. 1st time I had buffet which everytime I return to the table, the dishes are alrdy cleared. The waiters were nice and friendly too!

The overall bill was cheap too! Each of us only had to pay 18 including service charge and GST! But that's because I had a complimentary meal.

The best thing was when we left, we realised we forgot to order from the menu which is also included in the buffet. We totally forgot about the fish and chips, grilled steak and the others! Oh my! And I even forgot to take the cheese section! This can only mean 1 thing, I'm making another trip there!

After the meal, we were so bloated that we decided to take a stroll around and we walked all the way to Clarke Quay. Chatted and enjoyed each others' company. Hahaha! We are so GAY, NOT!

Yea, so if anyone interested, you can make a call to me and we'll go for buffet!

At RJ's Place....

2008-10-30T11:43:00.001-07:00

It's 2:43am and me, JW, Rev and Saint Clair is at RJ's chamber and we're slacking. Yes! 2 of us have school tmr but we're still here slacking! Haha! We're talking about serious stuff too la! Yea, went to Sentosa on monday too and went golfing on wednesday. Hahah! I'm like a damm free person... NOT! Could you believe when your candle start to fade......

It's pure random bombing!

2008-10-18T10:57:00.000-07:00

Yes, as my title says, i'm just gonna bomb anything.....

Maybe a greater thing will happen...(The song is just repeating itself in my head...)

It's late at nite but yea, so? Hahaha! To me, the night have better air than morning.
Yes, it doesn't makes sense but to me, it is! :)

School started! Happy to see the rest again, eating beef pizza in school and hanging around!

Haha! School is, I dunno, fun? Heeee.....(Damm gay!)

Feel like having a glass of 2005 Jacob's Creek Merlot! (If you even know what's it)

Hahaha! Actually a shot of Bombay Sapphire Gin will do too! (That's even more complicated than the prev!)

Ahhhh, I miss drinking Irish Cream too but now recession so must wait awhile man....

The bbq that day was fun! Genny took photos but havent upload! Grrrr......
The food is also good man.... Duh, I prepared it..... Hahaha, but since i didnt pay so it's expected la..... It's expensive tho......
We had:
-steak
-pork trotter
-pork chop
-fish
-mushroom and cheese
-becon and enoki mushrooms
-taiwan sausages
-tandoori chicken
-oriental chicken wings
-and can't remember.......

Yea, we are enjoying life! Hahaha! To me, there's 2 types of BBQ. One is where you enjoy good food and good company. Another is normal food and company. Both costs the same but the number of ppl is quite different. Definitely for me, I would prefer the first one coz, I love good food. To me, quality over quantity. You may say, you're so young, what do you know about enjoying food? Hahaha! Actually, I'm pretty picky when I am affording good food.

I dislike:
-frozen food
-food w/o seasoning or marinating
-instant food
-unfresh food
-msg
-food w/o garnish
-peanut
-small prawns
-mac fries

Yea man, I am very picky! Freaking!

I like:
-spice(Ginger, onions, parsley, cinnamon and more!)
-seasoning!(Coarse black pepper, black bean sauce and more!)
-Veg!(Everything except eggplants and bittergourd; I like bittergourd soup tho...)
-traditional stuff(Rice dumpling, Caviar, Fermented beancurd, soya beancurd and stuff....)
-expensive stuff (Foire Gras, Oyster, Beef, Sushi and sashimi, Tuna and many others!)
-shell stuff(Mussles, clams, geoduck, crab, lobster and others others others)
-dairy products

Yea, I admit, I am particular about food, so?

I think my life revolves around food and that's fine to me cause everyone needs food. It's just how they see the need. Some find that food is just for survival so there's no particular need for exp stuff. Others, like me find it an art, an expirence!

I think cooking tells of people's character. People who loves instant food is like people who wants something that's around the nice taste but require less effort and trouble. That's like people who wants to find a easy way to climb the cooperate ladder in life. For me, I'd like cooking things from scratch. Slow, lots of effort and alot of time, but that's the way I like it. Full of flavour, nothing short of perfect taste, the love put in it and a sense of satisfactory! It's somehow like a businessman. Always trying and failing. Lots of time the results don't appear. Tough pressure from all around. But when a little result is shown, that momment of satisfactory is, ARGH! Sweet!

It's liken to people who drink red wine.
2 types:
-2007 Cabernet Merlot
-1998 Merlot

People who drink for the sake of drinking would go for the Cabernet Merlot. But people who wants nothing less than what we would call red wine would go for the Merlot, which would maybe just reach their expectations only. See diff ppl have diff goals and views of life, that's why life's interesting.

I'm not saying I'm high class or very learned, saying all that stuff about red wine and caviar but I'm just inviting all those who is interested to join me in this quest to share and learn more and maybe one day, find that perfect recipe that warms the hearts of many...

Love what you do and you would do it to the best.....

Last random thing:If I wake up every morning just like that day, feeling your fingers, seeing your face, I would liken that to a stomach full of milk and honey, with a little love and warmth. (I'm not in love with anyone but just enjoying what love would bring...)

Gomen gomen...

2008-10-04T10:03:00.000-07:00

I know I've not been blogging much... Hontou-ne Gomen... Yea... Tmr's going RJ's bbq. Gonna take pictures and post. So lets wait in anticipation:)

Golfing Away!

2008-09-18T01:26:00.000-07:00

Yea, that's RJ doing his swing at the drving range. And yes, RJ and I went to NSRCC yesterday to play golf. And yes, ME!

This is me at the driving range! Hahaha!

My locker! The shower head there is very very very good! I almost wanted to take it home! Hahahaha! Yea... Maybe considering abt going there again! Muhahahahahah!

myou nashi kimi wa bo-ringu...

Hey!

2008-09-10T21:59:00.000-07:00

Yea, I know I've not been blogging lately..... Gomen... Been pretty busy lately and hardly could catch any proper sleep..... Have about 6-8 hours of sleep everyday but in those hours I have to wake up like 5-8 times so it isn't really sleep anyways.... May be flying to China in Dec but not confrim yet. Have to wait for the end of the month. And ore wa snip hair des.... Ok, ya, my hair is shorter now...... My lifestyle in hols is very busy so I'm now considering to take a breather.... Maybe I shud. Pull myself away from work and stuff and really spend time resting and spending more time with God. Heee! I shall haggle with my manager then! Muhahahahaha! There's more to come in the future blogs! Stay tuned!

When Heaven becomes part of Earth, will you be there?

No Regrets :)

2008-09-06T10:12:00.000-07:00

Hahahaha! Had class outing on Friday! Was actually quite looking forward to it but attendance erm....... Ger ps me*sob* Only like 8 came i think...... Had Seoul Garden! Ok, I have a fun and dumb class! Dumb in a good and funny way...... Yea! Yuan Zhi and me played basketball game with Nick Young! Nick Young is a NBA palyer which joined Wizards last year! I keep shaking his hand! Damm Cool Man! Got a Tee for free from Adidas! What Yuan Zhi said inspired me alot. He said something like,"How many times in your life you get to do something like that? Just do la!" Hahaha! And truely, many times we lead our lives not to this thought tt's why we don't see stuff happening in our lives! And really, thanks Yuan Zhi for the advice!

Btw, I catch 2 more soft toys in the wateva-u-call-it machine! Hahaha! I am freaking pro at it........

Thanks guys, enjoyed hanging out with you guys and 1 girl.....

She's gonna kill me.......

Ore Wa Dame Desu Sa...

2008-09-03T12:28:00.000-07:00

Wakateruyo...

IIE!

Ore wa shirimasen ne...

Kokorobosoi...

Gomen...

Sonzai motte kimi saido ore wa besuto dame... ...

Nara onri ore wa dame yuu mou...........

Things learnt....

2008-08-27T10:22:00.000-07:00

Here's something that I learnt while having coffee with one of my Business Group Managers. It's the way to success.... It goes liddat....

Cannot find people to set appointment with;
Set already but never come;
Come already but don't listen;
Listen already but neveer do;
Those who did never succeed;
Done already never succeed;
Succeed already but not long-lasting
Succeed and long-lasting....

It's actually in chinese but I translated la...
But it's something to this context and it really encourage me alot.
It not only applys to my job but also to my life too.
Yea!!!
Ganbatte Caleb!

*Gulping on Cal Ion Water.......*

Ore Wa...

2008-08-22T11:05:00.000-07:00

Caleb is not happy......

Caleb is not happy?

Shirimasen...

5 appointments still fail to hit SE...

Haiz, daijoubu....

Quite happy got to know a few people, learnt a few new stuff and really things that open me to the world out there...

Chatted with a few of my colleagues and get to know people from different walks of life.

Tell you man, you're be shocked by what you hear...

Recently got addicted to my company products...

And I mean ADDICTED...

Yea, they quite good and I felt better using them...

For examle my favorite, Cal Ion Water!!! Weee!

Why?
-Got 3 letters of my name inside (lame-.-''')
-got 12kcal of calcium in 600ml!(more than 100plus....)
-0g fats and sugar an flavoring and sweetener and whatever.....
-ionized water means easier to adsorb so won't feel bloated after drinking....(esp dun like to drink water like t***a.......)
-it's energized water!!! (means works like 100plus and red bull!)
note* it does not gives you wings......
-only $1.90 per bottle for 600ml so cheaper than ice mountain!
-no weird taste....
-kuso more regularly(last time 1 month 3-4 times now daily.....)

And yea, i mixed one bottle with rebina for fun..... Taste the same...

I'm still eyeing the magnetic bracelet!!!! $200++ but nice and can add to decora plus got health benefits! Must wait for pay first! Anyone want I can also recomend at staff price!

Getting for my mum Pearl Ion Lotion after I get my pay cause like quite good. Made from 100% grade A ionized pearl! Prevents pimples and good for complexion. Plus can actually use as foundation or drink to help improve health! Chio right?! Haha! Girls must be drooling now... I also got staff discount but must faster cause usually get sold out quite fast...

And got other products too la but I now aim these few first! Muhahahahahahahaha!

Yea, so I'm enjoying my job quite alot altho appointment not many can make it but GANBATTE!

Btw, if you're relatives seeking treatment for some dieases, I might have some products that can help too:) And I'm not out to earn your money!!!! SERIOUS!!!! (When I put the word so big means I mean it!!!)

Yea!

Ja na~

Update!

2008-08-16T10:04:00.000-07:00

Ok, nothing much....

Just here to say,
found places in my hse with internet.....

Yatta!

Pretty much happened in the past few days.....

Fail my 1st pract lesson for bike, sad dog......
Worst, sprain my left wrist....
But, not gonna stop me! Muhahahahaha......

Stayed over at JW hse...
He say 1st time ppl stay over...
Hahaha! Almost late for zone service....

The rest is too lengthy to pen...
Yea, and the gang have been pretty low on profile....
Okok, will try to do something soon....

Lastly,

Temae dame desu ka ore wa kanojou,
saikono taichi? Wakateruyo masaka.
Ikala, ore wa dame suki temae...
Ore wa henjou!
Shiyashini Caleb-san!
Gabatte yo!

Ja na~ ;)

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No Internet

2008-08-12T05:20:00.000-07:00

Ok, some pictures i drew while moving hse... Very bored ma.... Yea, new hse no internet so I wun be online often.... But opposite my hse openning Ashton's!!! How cool is that?! Sugoii! Yea and Macs is 3min away which is always open! Heeee! Supper anyone??? Hols filled wif slacking..... Still haven't got a job yet...... I need JOB!!!!! Rar!

To those studio projecting - Jiayou! Ganbatte! I'll be there if anyone needs help! Serious!

To those taking prelims - Work Hard, Study Hard, Play Hard!

Yea, dunno what to blog le.....

So, byebye!

Last Night

2008-08-08T07:42:00.000-07:00

Today will be my last sleep at my current hse.... *sob*

Yea, moving everything away by tomorrow, CONFIRMED...

Haiz, ore wa sadded...

Anyways, HAPPY BIRTHDAY CRYSTAL!!!!!!!! Wahahahahahahaha! Yea, she's 17!!!!!!!!!!

Oh yea, there's a new addition to my decora fetish!

It's a necklace! I got it at a rip off price of 50%!!! Woohoo!

Yea, gotten freeze my keyboard for awhile, a few months, shiranai....... Haiz.... Gomen keyboard.

I'll miss you.......

Threw away many many things! I clear my room with only one idea, If not everyday need things then byebye to it..... Haha! More than half my room gone and I still have the most stuff to move! Heee! Ichi box for my soft toys, ni for clothes, ichi for personel stuff, ichi for baking stuff, ichi for school stuff and still packing about two more boxes! Heee.... Not icluding keyboard and electric guitar! Weeee!

Stayed in this hse quite long le ba, abt 6 years ba! And it's big man! But no choice, haiz, gotta move. Jus hope new hse not so small in future!

And yea, PARA PARA CRAZE!!! Rmb me, rmb u, how we used to be, how we use to do...... Fuuuuuuuuuuuu~ Too bad no Hard Gay songs or else I confirm FUUUUUUUU~! meow, heeeeeeeeeeeeeee..............

Dunno when gonna update again but, stay tuned!!!!

Ja~

Break Free!

2008-08-06T05:54:00.000-07:00

Finally, the time has come....

Holidays! Whoohoo!

Hahaha! 2 whole months of slacking! Lebleb shiyashini!

Ok, the to-do list......

-get my freaking bike liscene!!!!

-play basketball very wednesday! Fuuuuu~

-maybe do a little cooking and baking........

-do some morning jogs while listening to dumb songs....... *I am cow hear me moo, I weigh twice as much as you!* that is so not true! Hai!~

-Get a JOB!

Cannot-do-but-hope-to-do-list....

-practise piano!!! (Gramps place no place to put my keyboard.....Sadded...)

-buy a bike.....(low on bling bling)

New place gonna be so cramp but it's ok, means got more excuses to chiong out late maybe overnight! Weeeeeee!!!! Anyone onz??? Pretty pls....... Gerger, Tsuya, RJ, Di, anyone!!!!! Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr, meow? Hahahaha! Ore wa serious!

This is my final assignment! Creative drawing! 3 toys, 1 garden and my school put together! Weee!

Currently now accepting shoe designning. Buy me the shoe and I'll desgin and get it done for you in a week! $10 per pair! (No money, no choice!!!) Plain coloured shoes preferred. Samples, look ask from Daphne Ho for reference. (Did a pair for her free, heeee) Pls support me!!!!

And yea, made a new friend, Ruth! Haha! Shall not say anything about her! Heeeee.......

The Rainbow After The Rain...

2008-08-01T08:56:00.000-07:00

Today finally handed up DF assignment...

22 thumbnails not including 6 threw away....

3 final pieces...

Finally!!!!!!!!!!!!

Drew the whole thing using TOOTHPICK!!!!

Whole nite never slp....

In the end, all I got is a D....

*Dong*

*Throw into rubbish bin(literally)*

Went to meet Lebleb2 at city hall.

Go eat at makansutra street then go arcade.

Saw the white Lilo that I always wanted.

So I told him, if got $1 in my wallet I play...

In the end,

Yea, he dropped out

I dunno what his real name so he shall be called Zuu!!! Heeee.....

Another picture of Zuu....

Indeed, the rainbow came,

I knew it even since yesterday :)

God of wonders beyond our galaxy,

You are holy,

holy...

Once Again... ...

2008-07-31T09:15:00.000-07:00

Today was not really a good day I guess.......
Morning went to Pennisula to print my poster then cab down to school to hand in....
Turn out that I handed in at 3 plus.....
Total waste of money....
Haiz....
Then when mounting poster, dad called....
Then argue say cannot go church on sat and sun(he veri stubborn!!!)
Conv finished, veri vexed....
Nvm....

Then struggle, how to wriggle my way thru, attend church but father happy.....
Still dunno how...
Haiz....
But daijoubu, God will make a way.

Go buy stuff for DF, all of us half dead.....*Smoke come out from mouth*
Keep buying the wrong paper.....
Waste money again......

Go airport eat, chat, slack....
Feel kinda relieved after talking crap :)
Alittle happier....

Came home, dad called.....
Home moving postponed!
Can go church le!
God will make a way, didn't He?

Once again i look upon the cross where You died,
I'm humbled by Your mercy and i'm broken inside,
Once again i thank You,
Once again i pour out my life.......

He never says when,
He never says how,
But He always does it,
Everytime, everyhow.
That, is my miracle!

I believe, tomorrow, I will see a rainbow :)

As Promised!

2008-07-28T09:33:00.000-07:00

The Bible says"Let thy yea be yea and let thy nay be nay" so as promised, here's Nigel's protrait!

The other 3 drawings I did during drawing class... 2 cats and 1 tiger... Very bored so jus anyhow draw... Actually got more but then I threw then away......*didn't wanted to but coz......*

Ikala, ore wa daijobu-des... ...

Sry Kakashi for sleeping when staying back even though it's for awhile, yea, but was really tired...... I guess your Sharingan can tell! Heeee! Gomen!

A few more assignments to go and I'll be relaxing le! Ganbatte everyone!!!!!!!!!! Vroom Vroom all the way!

Portait Drawing

2008-07-26T10:28:00.000-07:00

Been having fun lately, completing assignments and stuff.... Heee..... Recently did portrait drawing and had to draw Nigel. Haha! It was fun drawing him. I threaten that he better draw me nice nice but then heeeee........ Not bad la! Hahaha! I shall upload the pic the next post! TC!

*no jap this time coz i've been accused of copying............*

Start Of A New Blog

2008-07-20T22:09:00.000-07:00

Hey peeps. I just started this blog. Not much of updates though but will post a few of my old works and new works. Stay tuned~ Nya~ Here's 2 of my very old work. Sorry for the quality. I try to edit with PS but still can't. Gomen.....