How?

Caught in between 3, it's neither's fault, just mine... I can just wish and pray all is perfect but the truth is that it isn't. I can say as many stuff I want, cause I'm intellectual but I'm also emotional. I can tell one to give up, tell another the same but I'm the one not giving up here and not letting others have a chance. Love is not about ourselves but about the other one. If we focus on too much on what we can gain then it isn't love but perhaps just something to fill a hole in our heart. Do you really love the person or love what he deos to you? Love is never about gaining but it's about giving. If having the other makes you happy, does it make the other party happy the same way? Love is heartwarming and heartfelt but if it causes pain, maybe we ain't loving the right way? Love is happiness, not sadnees, an effiort not a feeling, reality not a fantasy, accepting not perfect, complex yet simple...

My Heavenly Father,
Loves me with all His heart,
Whether I'm good or bad,
Whether I fall or stand.
He only wants goodness for me
Although He lets me go through the fire.
But as the flames purify me as man,
I go through it with His hands.
He protects me, comforts me and will never forsake me.
That's the love that He gives,
Is my underserving gain...