Dying Body...

Yup, just finished basketball and bathing. Mus have wondered y i'm so fast. Simply because I ran back home. Guess it's something stupid to do after a day of basketball, but guess I'm just trying to tire myself out. My calfs almost had cramps just now and my knees went soft twice. My calfs suppose to be my best assets but even now, they're failing me... And my knees, all the worst. Since late last year, I've already been expirencing knee pains. It was gone for awhile but now, it seems that it's coming back again. When I was running back, my usual sitch problem appeared too and had chest pain also. Guess that this body is failing me abit too soon. That day my nose was bleeding and today had a bad cough for a short period of time. My low blood pressure have been taking it's effect and my high body temp simply just keeps me dehydrating. Lucky my back didn't surface any problems for now.

I wonder, is my body condition linked to my emotions or isit that plainly, it's failing? But what I've figured out is that I'm gonna push it to the limits. Dun care how it is now. Gonna do intense excercise then plus work plus dance, this should keep me occupied till school reopens. Then, gonna do runs and gym. If my body can last, I'll just do a full body check up at the end of the year to see how many parts of my body is mulfunctioning.

Sigh, sometimes I just wonder, is it that you're plain tired or did my words do not mean anything. It seems that everything I said just fall into deaf ears and that you find me not saying anything... Sometimes I wondered that if I should have said anything at all...

The blind just leads the blind...... Hah, wanna learn guitar? There's many good teachers ard. But him? Haiz, just dun wanna say anything. It'll just irritate you and then you'll probly start saying things like why I say j liddat. But ya, his skills we all know. That's just enough. And it's not jus only me thinking this way... ...













When you realise everything you said means so little, even talking seems scary.......