Friday, June 19, 2009

Hi, Yogurt Ice Cream For You?

Yes, that's what I have to say the whole night to my customers... The sales hit the expected rate, the busy hours kept me occupied, and I pretend nothing happened. Or at least I tried. But everytime I want to smile to my customers, I would just remember the times you told me to give my brightest smile. Then, I found it hard to smile... I tried to joke but guess everyone knows Caleb is trying to hide something. No one laughed. When work ended, I found myself alone, dunno who to turn to, where to go... When there's nothing else for me to do, I just can't avoid the thought of you... Tried messaging you but guess I just can't hide what I was feeling... Thought of the incident this morning and try to find myself a excuse to apologise, none...

Why must he tag you in his notes, why must he talk to daphne about you, why must you spend so much time doing his notes? Still remembered your words last night. You said you were trying to do a quiz... You lied. It was his notes. And you said it was difficult and you can't think therefore you couldn't finish it. And I know you're disappointed that you can't. So, I just tried to help you by asking him to tag you in easier notes so that you don't have to rack your brains and can't complete them on your first try. Guess I was too clever, it appears that my concerns were too much for you. Hah. In the end, all I got was "Why you anyhow go tell jasper things?" Pls, read the comments properly. I just said you couldn't finish, isn't that what you said? The rest is my own thoughts and his. And I got the blame? Many thanks arh? And then all that he said seems appropriate? Hah!

If it was about us, I don't mind taking the blame, in fact I always say it was my fault. But this, don't you think it's abit too much? And all you said was forget about the comment thing... Is that your form of sorry? Or was it how you try to save our friendship? Try harder...

What's worst is that my bestfriend have to come and tell me someone thinks I'm sticky. Think for yourself, ever since your bro warned us, how have I been sticky? Everytime that I asked you out, I asked others along... Jun Wei and Daph and your bro. I treat everyone equally as friends so I asked you along. And please, most of the times that if we went out alone is because someone had something urgent or you want something but no one went with you so I just go with you. I was always the one filling in your empty slots and making it up for other ppl. When was it your turn? I don't mind but please don't take me for granted and say stuff about me.

Guess everything that I did, the feelings that I felt, was afterall, unimportant...
















Plasters feel the saddest because they always help people heal up their wounds but when they've fufiled their duties, they get blamed that they've become dirty and get thrown away...

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