Not Nice Being Mr Nice

Who would have thought that my 1 year of dreaming and 2months or training would come to naught today when all I do was being nice.

1) I was not supposed to be team captain just that no one else wanted to...
2) I didn't choose the players...

1st Wayne wants shouts at me telling me what to do, then another person who knows nothing about basketball tells the team what to do, then Wayne gets his way. I mean I'm fine with all these if we're playing with good players but we have to know our means. What's with all the, if my plan fail I don't play lor, it's just a game no need to win and all those remarks? I was talking to Jeremy Wong on thursday night and he told me something that really hit me that is Sportsmanship is playing the best you can no matter who your opponent is to show them the due respect. But if all you guys are concerned is about having fun and make sure everyone plays every game, then why come? And the fact is everyone got to play for at least 1 and a half game, all except me... I really wonder if I told nicholas tan that I take over as captain and register our team is a mistake? Some people wasn't supposed to be in the team but they came and asked me to put them in but when I put them in against the others opinions, all I got was rebellion and ignorance? And I still have to go over to the other team's captain to tell them not to play so seriously against us. All this for? So much for being nice. Is it me that I lack the charisma to lead a team or it's just plainly people don't wanna listen? I don't know but at least be grateful that I let you guys in...

I know I shouldn't be here ranting and crying over spilled milk but if you're taking people's dreams and vision lightly and forsaking all the effort people try to make you feel good then there's no point me being nice. All I wanted was us to win at least one, and it's not too much to ask for but in the end? We can't even score a single point in that game we're supposed to win... I guess it was kinda rude for me to leave the court for a breather but if I sat in there longer, I would have exploded and gave you a punch in the face. I knew that wasn't Christ-like so I walked out to cool off... At least Chow was outside chatting with me... Thanks man Chow! And after everything, no one said nothing... Well at least I got a "That was a good game" from Wen and that made me really happy altho my face and the other part of me is still trying to cool off.

After that went to Changkat to play with the guys. Haha! Elisha called me "zone 6 best player..." He's like trying to be lame... But at least the guys said I improved and that today my shooting was more accurate. It seems that all those training paid off... Soon, soon every sunday I can go down changkat and play again!

Yup, don't worry, I'm still nice :) Just that I'm totally disturbed and frustrated with the whole incident but ya, it's all over... Let's just make tomorrow a better day than today!