Thinking, Pondering and Hoping...

Yea, it's pretty late and I'm over at RJ's place making sure that he won't have a heart attack.... He won't. Hahaha! He just had a muscle spasm attack, if an attack is what you called it, in the afternoon. Shud be fine within a couple of days.
Today, woke up with alot of thoughts in my mind, got alot to decide and I just know that they have to be sorted out but it seems that my mind can't function at the moment. Haiz, maybe it's just me.... Maybe cause I expect too much from myself or maybe because I dream dreams too big for me to handle, either way.
Recently been thinking abt a question which I can never find an answer to it. When you drip a drop of oil into a glass of water, no matter how you mix, they just can't be blended together. So is it the oil's fault or the water's fault? It just seem both party is trying just as hard, or so I think, but it isn't working. Scientists says that when you break a yolk and mix it in, they'll get mix together. But what exactly is the yolk? God, HELP! It's fine, I'm still sane.
Another thought is my future. My dreams, my ambitions, my goals and where I want to be... Something I know that can't be messed with, something that isn't trival at all. But how can a 18 year old guy know whether he's taking a right step for his future? It's not about falling but rather it's about feeling sick pulling yourself up after too many times of failure. I know I'm gonna make it big in life, and I'm definitely not joking, but when I look at my life now, I know the path to success isn't gonna be a bed of roses.
Too much, I'm thinking too much. There's other more thoughts for me to entertain. Thiam Siag, concentrate, grind your teeth, pull it through and see the day! And Wendy, Happy Birthday!!! I wish you here because, it's closer to me then anywhere else...













I remember what you don't,
You didn't thought I would but I didn't let go.
I remember the days we spent together,
I remember the way we smiled at each other.
I' m sorry to say, things have changed.
I've learnt to let go.....
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